God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

I miss it. It rawked. Great experience. Fun. Enjoyable. One week has passed already, since the last day. I hate time. Why does it always oppose us. I really miss it. Well i hope I did improve...feel like I did and hope that's true!
Anyway. Yen Lin. For whatever reason you're pissed with me, I'm sorry. But I still cannot agree with one thing, and that's that I have AP. And if you are still pissed, could you pls not be? :(


To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
You feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
But you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Could I possibly find any song lyrics or poem or quotation that suited my life more?

1. Name
cheryl
2. Do you like to play basketball
[WHAT THE!!!!!!!!!!!!] DUH
3. Is blue your fav colour?
one of them
4. Do you have someone in mind?
erh? yah?
5. Are you in a relationship?
no
6. What are your fav movies?
STUPID QUESTION. need i say? lotr rawkz!!!!!!!! n so does legolas!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7. Any sisterS?
no
8. Any brotherS?
no
9. Do you play truant in sch?
no
10. What is ur fav radio station?
perfect 10 n power 98
11. What course u take?
huh? eng, lit, maths, science, chinese, hist, geog?
12. Where can you be found?
at home, in school, at orchard or suntec, at church, at my grandma's
13. Who is your fav idol?
hmm. no one
14. What is your fav subject?
lit!!!!!! all time!
15. Which company did you attend lately?
none
16. Who argues with you most of the time?
father
17. Who would you like to meet?
orlando n all the lotr cast
18. What are you thinking now?
"legolas rawks. If only elves exist!" lol, I'm listening to the soundtrack, what do you expect.
19. What is your last problem in mind now?
she being pissed at me
20. Do you wear specs?
no
21. Your fav boyband?
lots. simple plan, backstreet boys, blue
22. Do you use sling bag or bagpack?
both
23. Do you prefer chocolate or strawberry?
choc!
24. Do you like branded stuff?
not ecatly.
25. Are frenz important to you?
yesh of course.
26. Do you buy cds?
yup
27. Who you love most in your family?
mother
28. What is your fav cartoon?
none
29. When is the last time you went shopping?
last saturday - 27 nov
30. What is your wt?
51.5 kg. So curious for what???
31. What is your ht?
166 cm. *grinz*
32. Do you nag?
depends :)
33. Do you create havoc?
erh? sometimes
34. If you are to choose what you want to be in the future, what will you be?
actress. not like I even have potential.
35. What is the frequent word you use daily?
duh!!!
36. own a handphone?
nope
37. first 2 numbers of your phone?
na
38. What hp model do you own now?
na. I don't have a hp!!!
39. Do you use line or top-up card?
na. haven't I already said I DON'T own a hp!!!
40. What do you want to be in the future?
actress
41. How was life recently to you?
stressful, depressing. but very recently? FUN!!! :D
42. Who was the last person who approached to have an engagement with you?
erh?
43. What do you receive for your birthday?
prezziez
44. song you listening to?
lots. Anything on the raio or my CD's
45. feeling now?
relaxed. A feeling I hardly ever get.
46. pets?
none
47. name[s] of pet[s]?
none
48. description of shirt u're wearing now?
tee
49. chips or popcorn?
popcorn! What's better than to indulge while watching lotr?!
50. person you want to meet now?
legolas. who doesn't exist.
51. person you last saw?
mum
52. Last person u last went out with?
parents
53. last person u hug?
mildred. and si hui.
54. your best friend/buddy?
i dunno
55. last time when u went to see a doctor?
can't remember
56. what illness?
um. fever, I think.
57.favorite restaurant?
mac's and burger king
58. ever recieve prank call?
yesh. Angeline you are so lame! :P
59. hung up on some1?
yup
61. proudest achievement?
my PSLE results I guess. I dunno.
62. colour of hair?
black
63. colour of eyes?
black
64. long or short hair?
long
65. straight or curly?
straight
66. wear watch?
yes
67. favourite song?
Welcome to my life, I will carry you, Into the west etc.
68. favourite Group?
many.
69. favourite singer?
Clay
70. hobbies?
reading, writing in my diary, playing bball!!
71. What do you usually wear when you go out?
tee + jeans
72. What book you reading currently?
lord of the rings. I am such a SLOW reader
73.Do you have msn?
yup
74. current nick?
greenleaf
75. What are you doing?
this
76.What are your plans for tomorrow?
write in my diary, do Quiet Time, watch MVP qing2 ren2, go for church camp
77.What is your bedtime today?
when I get offline. 11.30pm?
78.schools you've attended?
Bukit Panjang Methodist Church Nursery Prog, Bukit Panjang Primary, RGS
79.what is the wallpaper on your cell phone?
na.
80.did you get enough sleep last night?
yup
81.first thing you thought about when you woke up?
"Why do i wake up so late every day?"
82.what do you have handy at your bedside?
nothin. They are my legolas collage, lotr poster + calendar, motivational quote poster. :D

Put a * beside the one that's true about you.

01. i have a cell phone.
02. i have friends who use me. *[had, actually. oh wellz.]
03. i am an only child. *
04. i am a shopoholic. *[most of the time it's window shopping though.]
05. i love dangly earrings.
06. i have smoked a cigarette before.
07. i love cold weather.
08. i'm obsessed with the computer.
09. i have shot a gun before.
10. i can't live without music.
11. i have no tolerance of ignorant people.
12. i have ridden on a motorcycle before. [i wish!]
13. i'll be in this town forever.
14. i've been to 5 other countries.
15. i get annoyed easily. *[depends on my mood though]
16. i eventually want kids. [i wonder]
17. i have neat handwriting. *[whenI feel like writing neatly, yes. lol!]
18. i have more than a few horrible memories. *
19. i am addicted to chocolate. *[a bit]
20. i am an atheist.
21. my parents are strict.
22. i love airplane rides. [never been on any!]
23. i love taking pictures. *
24. i hate girls who are fake. *
25. i can be mean when i want to. *
26. my parents care about my grades. *[and why not?]
27. one of my best friends is a guy. [hmm...]
28. i have way too many purses.
29. i'm obsessed with lip gloss.
30. i am easy to talk to. [how would I know?]
31. i would never eat raw fish.
32. i cry easily.
33. i hate it when people are late.
34. i procrastinate. *
35. i love winter.
36. i have too many clothes for my closet/dresser. *[i guess..]
37. i love to sleep. *
38. i wish i were smarter. **[duh]
39. i'm afraid of flying. [???]
40. i hate drama.
41. i bite my nails
42. i have been on an 8 hour drive.
43. i never fight with my parents.
44. i love the beach.
45. i have never had the chicken pox.
46. i have gone out in public in my pajamas. *[i was young, and sick, too sick to even walk properly I think. lol!]
47. i can't control my emotions.
48. i have a best friend. *
49. i have moved more than once.
50. i truly love my friends. *
51. i have braces.
52. i love to write. *[depends on what though]
53. i have never broken a bone.
54. i agree with racist people.
55. i hate my computer.
56. i love guys that play guitar.
57. i state the obvious.
58. i'm a happy person. *
59. i love to dance.
60. i love to sing.
61. i love cleaning my room.
62. i tend to get jealous very easily. * [i think]
63. i love cute underwear.
64. i have gotten high before.
65. i love night better than day.
66. i have been on the phone for over 5 hours at a time.
67. i don't like to study for tests. ***[DUH]
68. i love God. *
69. i am too forgiving. * [sometimes? haha.]
70. i have horrible sense of direction.
71. i miss elementary school. *
72. i have had a boyfriend before. [...]
73. i'm a mummy's girl *
74. i love kisses on my forehead.
75. i love the color pink. *
76. i love to sew.
77. my eye color changes.
78. i should see a therapist.
79. i played on a guys sports team.
80. i become stressed easily. *****
81. i hate liars. *[depends on what they lie about!]
82. i like comfy sweatpants.
83. i can play the piano. *
84. i love the smell of rain.
85. i love my family. *
86. i hate needles.
87. i am a perfectionist. *****
88. i always wanted to learn to play the drums. *****
89. i hate the feeling of failure. *****
90. i have friends in other countries. *
91. i know how to cook.
92. i can be quite selfish **
93. at times, i still act like a little kid. *
94. i have food allergies.
95. i love little kids.
96. i love to read. ***
97. i wish i were more motivated for school.
98. i love getting stuff in the mail. *
99. i have problems with letting go of old feelings. **
100. i hate being alone.
101. i love summer. *[if only I knew what it REALLY feels like, lol!]
102. i love the weekends. **
103. i love black eyeliner.
104. i think i'm pretty. [DEFINITELY NOT]
105. i type with one hand. [haha!]
106. i live in a one story house. *
107. i wear make-up.
108. i have never ridden on an underground subway. *
109. i can't swim. *[...]
110. i have bad memory.
111. i go to school * [what a sad thing]
112. i sing in the shower. *
113. i have never been camping.
114. i hate cheerleaders

what i need to improve on:
1. dribbling
2. cutting in in the zone
3. passes? (stronger)
4. STAMINA!!!
5. shooting accuracy. it's horrible. i actually miss underbaskets gosh!
6. defence! it's getting more n more terrible...the opponent KEEPS ON cutting past me. I hate it. Whatever happened to my defence??????

That is a lot huh. I'm scared!!! There is a very very very great possibility that i won't get into the team next year. I only got in cos of defence after all...which is currently getting to be very terrible...so what's gonna get me into the team like that?

oh no.

I'm in serious trouble if I don't work hard!

blew all my money away this hol!!! :(

1.black sleeveless tee
2.navy blue tee with a bball pic + "athletic" word
3.track designed berms
4.berms with light blue n white lines at sides
5.ornage n blue striped BELT!!! yayyyyy!!!!!!!
6.jeans!! rawkin man!
7.blue slippers
8.brown n white slippers
9.happy house badges (they're on my brown bag!)
10.bball keychain! (not the squishy type though...:( )
11.shoelaces! (3)

On Sunday I shall go to church with a total makeover (except for my hair, watch n bag i guess.)

:D
hafta go for lunch now.

gosh. SAS RAWKZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Man, the school is SO COOL!!!!! They got middle school n high school n who noes what else. It's just the typical American High School!!! SO SHIOK!!!!!!!!!!!!! And the hostels (if those were the hostels) are...GOSH. SOOOOO nice! AAAH I wanna be an American leh. High quality living sia!! And they got locker rooms... just like in America. O man... And their sports facilities...like they got practically EVERYTHING lah! Aiyo...why in the world must S'pore be liddat...haiz. I wanna be an American:)

sigh. This com is so konked out. Now I know what Vinna felt like. Lollers! The laptop got virus...then this com is like, so slow... sighz. Ah well. Oh I realised I haven't reviewed kell's fanfic! Sheesh. I shall blame the com this time. Blamng myself's really really tiring (but then again, if it's my fault, how can I push the blame to others???) Yesterday was supposed to review...then the com (or rather the laptop) konked out on moi. HAIZ. So irritating. Gosh and MSN Messenger just signed out all of a sudden. Dunno what "encountered a problem and has to shut down". Sth liddat lah. Nevermind!

OKok I guess I gtg lah. Tomorrow got training. Lifting weights yay! It's fun. But tiring sia.
Welliez neeway. Shall write another time. As I always say.

The Champion end liao. Now time to watch The Amazing Race! And no other show. Haiz. TV shows are so terribly boring. Hardly have any nice ones, like really nice ones. I realise I do like watching TV, just that I don't watch. Cos there's nothing nice to watch, sadly.

Alright I said I would go. I shall then.

harlow. to who? I also don't know :)
"Happiness is the best feeling anyone could ever have. And no one should miss out on it, ever."
"Good friends should always be made, Great friends should always be remmbered, and true friends should always be treasured deeply in our hearts."
Quotations from the wise!!! muahaha. :D

This laptop is konky man. Keeps shutting down all of a sudden. Stupid virus. Sigh. Anyway. Later I'm gonna read lotr. Yay. I'm like, such a super slow reader. Will take 5 years to finish the book man. Lol. But I gotta take time to memorise the poems too! like Vin said that time. Wheeeeeeee!!!!

Ren wo ao you gonna end liao. Haiz that's the prob with s'porean shows. They just show like, 20 or 30 episodes? Then all of a sudden they have a very very very abrupt ending. S'poreans are lousy. I really prefer Europe. I am definitely not one patriotic gurl yeah. But I really think S'poreans are like...? compared to other countries like USA. I mean, they emphasise SO MUCH on academics but the results THAT good meh? I wonder. They aren't even creative. And the culture. Even worse! The other day I was at Changi beach, and then there were lots of Europeans running around...even little young ones. See. if it were Chinese, I bet the parents would be like, screaming their heads off at the children to come back so that they'd be safe. Sheesh! You see the Europeans don't even care. They're like, let them wander all they want, then later just call them back. And does anything happen to the children? NO! Why be paranoid sigh. I really don't like Chinese. The language itself, the culture, and the people also. I'm one myself I am aware, of course. But anyway, did I ever say I like myself right?

Chinese is stupid. FULSTOP.

I like nature. And scenery . Going to beaches is fun, and watching the sea is nice. But, as I already said, of course, other countries would be better! Much, much better! There's snow...mountains...(New Z!!!!!! Middle Earth man!)...and simply lush green grass. Beautiful indeed. I wanna go to another country. DEFINITELY NOT AN ASIAN ONE.

And is high school fun? I wonder. Reading books has influenced my thinking. Ilove other countries. lol. Haven't even seen them in the 1st place.

Got lots more to write...but i gtg for lunch. And I aint cumin back cos I'll be reading lotr n will be engrossed!!! Shall save the rest for another time then.

ha! I found out what the problem was that hindered me from getting into blogger all this while. That Zone Alarm thingie lah. Haiyo! Supposed to be protecting the com from viruses then liddat arh, then zao cheng zhe me duo ma fan! lol. :( Welliez! So it wasn't blogger problem. Haha. Do I need to apologise for yuan-wanging them? heh. I'M SO LAME. :)) (But definitely not worse than ro! =])
Hah. So much for using perfect English huh.

Anyway! Let me be bored for a while. I am after all. Why isn't anybody online? Too sleepy-head eh? Still snuggling in bed...=] zzz
So... care to read a poem now? I guarantee it's a GOOOD one! haha!

Seek for the sword that was broken:
In Imladris it dwells;
There shall be counsels taken
Stronger than Morgul spells.
There shall be shown a token
That doom is near at hand
For Isildur's Bane was waken,
And the halfling forth shall stand.

Nice right! DUH. Hello, lotr one how to not be nice. :D Hey I don't mind writing another one here! Or 2 more! Or 3! Have a fun time reading peeps!

All that is gold does not glitter
Not all those who wander are lost
The old that is strong does not wither
Deep roots are not reached by the frost

From the ashes a fire shall be woken
A light from the shadows shall spring
Renewed shall be blade that was broken
The crownless again shall be king.

This one is like, so famous anyway. I should be ashamed if I don't know it as an ardent lotr fan. Okok, maybe I'll save the rest for another entry haha. Then everyone will be scared of reading my blog liao. I'll bore them to death! lol =].

*change of subject*

I'm not being too hard on myself. But thanks so much anyway, those who tried to cheer me up. Appreciate your effort :) However, I really think that if you're lousy, you're lousy. And you should admit it instead of lying to yourself. It's ok man, you guys. You may think I better of me than I of myself, but that's cos you really dunno the number of utterly stoopid mistakes I committed, the number of times I hài the class (because of stupid mistakes again...), and how totally irresponsible I have been. You don't know. And I guess if you did, you're sure to think I was real lousy too. Yeah.
So, thanks for the consolement(?). Really. But no matter what, I was still lousy.

Am I seriously reproaching myself? Like Amanda and Alicia said. But that isn't bad is it? Well, I deserve it anyway don't I. One should get what he deserves. Always. If not, why do they call it "deserve", right?
I think I'm making no sense here at all. Lol. But I understand what I feel. Just that I'm no good at getting it down in words. wellll.

By the way, ro, I am not that good a chair you know. I mean seriously. I don't even deserve to be it. Thanks for the support + encouragement anyway. And thankew Amanda and Alicia too. :)

I shall try to be my happy and crazy self again now. Haha. I don't even understand myself. Guess I'm weird, that's all:)
Leening is so nice. Gosh, thanks so much, angel! Did you peeps see what she wrote in my taggie? Whee she is so nice. :)) (I think she is rolling on the floor and laughing away when she's reading this. =])
And the Angela person. Aussie! How cool. lollers. So now I've got like, 3? 4? contacts whom I have never seen before in real life. Ha. How fun eh. Kenneth Tan, Eric, Angela, and...hmm. Can't remember...yah, those who added me and up to now haven't come online yet, so I dunno who they are :) haha.

Shall end here. Finally. :) Hopefully when I go online again to post this, there'll be more peeps online. If not no one to talk to. So boring! Oh I gotta go do Quiet Time as well. My commitment to God! This is probably one of the longest entries I've ever written. Oh yah, cos of the poems:)) Haha. But there was never a rule that limited the no. of words one can write in a blog entry right? Yup. People like kell...always write a lot anyway. I could be like her. Only that I'm not so free and don't have that much time! Too busy mugging every day, duh. =]
I'm getting reallu long-winded. Lol. OK I really will end now.
Au revoir! :) *mua*

so after like, 45 minutes, i FINALLY got in. sheesh!!! blogger doesn't like me. It's never working. Ever since that time i couldn't get in, there was never a time when i was able to sign in straight away, cos every time say my password wrong. GOSH what's it's freakin problem! hmmph. So frustrated. :(

Yah. So everything was my fault again huh. As usual right. They weren't enthu and that's my fault. They didn't wanna co-operate and that's my fault. We lost, and that was my fault.
WHAT A LOUSY CHAIR I AM. I'M SO SORRY MAN, all you eightians. sheesh...you guys really need someone much more capable + responsible + worthy yeah. I'm so sorry. Like I said, hopefully next year someone better takes my place:)
I sound so sarcastic. So terribly sarcastic. Well that's my fault again. Everything's my fault lah!

Sheesh! I got nothing to be happy about. Haiz.

sorry is all i can say. time can't be turned back, and mistakes were mistakes, they were in the past. "let bygones be bygones." Sheesh, that doesn't work for me. Absolutely not.

I'm so sorry.

yay!
i like the new url. so nice. still as lotr as ever!!!
lollers.

i carn forget snow city.
AND THE GUY. (o man!!!)
shuttup myself!!!

hope ppl relink me!!
http://anduril-flameofthewest.blogspot.com
aah! so nice!!
:):):):):):):):):):):):):)

je suis crazy. (My french is horrible, I admit. And I don't bother checking the dictionary.)

no. 1: SORRY ALL EIGHTIANS for making our class lose. so terribly sorry kae. really, genuinely, truly, seriously.
no. 2: has sb been hacking my blog??? haiyo bo liao ah? haha neeway nvm, cos I already did that to vinna b4 and it's quite fun hackin lol. At least I can still get in.
I have recovered!!! But i still think i shouldn't go for training cos it may make me fall sick again. Like what happened after netball yesterday.

I have started my mission(?) on using perfect English even when typing. That means, no short forms like "noe" and "dun" and whatever else. I will only use them when taking notes during lessons, when I need to scribble very quickly. It is hard! Especially for me who can't type fast. Lol. It looks so funny. Like, so formal! But nevermind. Whatever. "It os for your own good!!!" What good? I don't even know! *grinz*

Snow city was fun. It was freezing. Especially since I was so sick. Sigh. So cold! Like, I was already wearing my jacket, then doubled up with theirs... plus gloves. sheesh. I hate being sick. It was real fun, but couldn't exactly enjoy just cos i was sick. UURGH! Anyway, the slide was very fun (repetition). And racing rocked. But I'm not a very good slider, as everybody can see. (I'm so sorry!!!)
So I was always one of the last, you know... yah. :( all in all, i really enjoyed myself yups. And the ppl there are so nice!! I definitely must be crazy, but THAT GUY was SO NICE!!! As in, you know what I mean when I say that. Nevermind, nevermind!! Forget I said anything. *dots*

I think I'm kinda...despo?
Nevermind forget I said anything again!

to all eightians... SORRY AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!