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"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

It is the last day of this year. And next week it's back to school. Oh like I'm SO lookin forward to it! I realise to that I haven't managed to accomplish all the things that I planned to do during this dec hol. Like...

+ finish reading lotr [i read at the pace of a snail]
+ watchin lotr again, and again, n again
+ goin to the library
+ goin to ppl's houses to crap

I dunno what else. Haiz, 1/3 of my hols were taken up by the kl trip + camp [man i miss it!!!], another 1/3 by the stupid chinese project, and the last 1/3 i dunno. Goin out, stayin at home being sian...yah. I hate this part of the hols. When you like start to panic cos you still haven't done everything you wanna...and you TOTALLY DON'T WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL!
SIGH!

New year's resolutions.
"get over being heartbroken
"grow closer to God
"discipline myself not to stay online for such a long time once I come on
"get over being heartbroken
"did i mention getting over being heartbroken?
"basically, get over being heartbroken. Cos without that, I can't even think properly what my other resolutions are.

I am so dreading going back to school. Ok I'll talk about X'mas then.
I lurve my prezzies!!! =]=]=]
lotr poster, legolas calendar [thx yi kai!!!], a miniature SILVER adidas bball [SO COOL!!! thx nat, becky, alina], a cute yellow bear keychain from rosalind, a nici cow keychain from charmaine [very nice man!], a pump from deborah [and i got another pump from claire in the gift exchange thingy!], a bible verse thing [very sweet:)] from daryl's family, a russ stuffed bear from aunty imm, a crayola notebook from mildred...the list goes on. I can't even remember!

Thankew to everyone for the wonderful prezzies!!! Thanks for the thought [which counts]!

Here's wishing anyone reading a HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! May the year ahead be showered with god's blessings, and lots of joy, happiness and laughter!
Oh and do I need to add, may you not get heartbroken by anyone?
I think I'll shuttup here.
namarie!

Will i ever forget it??????
I'm PATHETIC.
I can't even concentrate on my toot chinese project cos I CAN'T STOP THINKING.
Maybe I've got a big problem, and that's that when things bug me, THEY BUG ME. LOTS.
huh.
DO U NOE WHAT IT FEELS LIKE????????!!!!!
Haiz
I said I gave up right?
But i don't wanna. And I don't even think I am anyway.

I'm trying to forget that I'm addicted yo you. But I want it and I need it. I'm addicted to you.
goodbye??

i give up.
goodbye then

Yeah!!! Tonight going for X'mas carolling. But too bad only 4 people's houses...wish got more, will be more interesting then. Nvm...this is only my 1st experience, I hope I'll enjoy it! And after that, we're having a PARTAYYYY!! Yeeha! Until about 3 am I guess? SO FUN!! I'll stay up the whole night. Def won't sleep. Like camp! I love night(or early morn), esp when i'm not at home. Can go around alone...and explore yeah. Really fun man. I can't wait!!! =]=]=]
Yesterday's training was so fun. We did weights, then played soccer!!! Whoa alina really pro man, she was like, within the 1st few minutes of the game only, she scored TWICE!!! Wahaha. We (other team) were like, wanted to kill her, cos for every ball your opponent scored more than you, gotta run 1 round around the track!!! Then later...finally, we scored the first !!! And then we scored again, n again, n again... they too. Si Hui another really zai one sia. Dribbling is like, whoa!! Haha. She scored one too. I scored twice!! Yeah. But actually, it was cos the Mr Lim didn't even guard the goal properly...was looking elsewhere so the ball rolled past him! It wasn't even fast ball, so if he had seen, he could have defended..but he not looking, so we were real lucky!! Lol! :)
Then we had to run 1 round around the track, and we cheated, only ran half a round...so Mr Ong punished us, made us run 2 more rounds! Haiz! We huo gai lah... then olivia n Natasha kept on singing this irritating song about a stream..n a bank n sthsth, then a moon...until all of us could memorise it too! So as we ran, we sang, and everyone started staring at us..haha! Then furthermore it was reporting day...the pri. sch ppl were around, so we really scared them yeah! Haha! We even made up this weirdo basketbal advert...it's REALLY LAME. So claire says that we're like, advertising n at the same time scaring ppl away, which is good so we have less competition next year yup! HAHAHA. We're a lame bunch of sec 1's, but the most bonded batch too! =]
I'm still wondering what to wear for tonight...bright coloured t-shirt + jeans. I have so many black n blue t-shirts...hard to find a bright one. The pink one? But I scared he don't like...well.
I got a shoebag from yanny, olivia n jamie!! You guys rawk!!! One wish come true. THANKS!!! And Claire n Si Hui...OH MY GOSH. You couldn't have given me ANYTHING BETTER. Yup you noe what I mean...they gave me this GIGANTIC LOTR POSTER man...and I mean gigantic. And green. It consists of legolas, gandalf, aragorn n gimli. Wahaha. I LURVE IT TO BITS!!! Oh I have to apologise to all of ya all too...that I gave such puny lil pathetic prezzies in exchange for all these extremely GREAT prezzies...that's what being poor is about yeah? I'm sorry..
1 week to next year...don't wanna remind myself sigh. Another year of crazy stress n pressure. Die lah! I still dunno whether to quit french...i really lurve it lor. But seriously can't cope. Will drop one day man. Oh well.
Lunch time! :)

i'm getting more n more angry n frustrated over that stupid project. Stress again sia! And during the HOLS! haiz...
3 days to Xmas, and I haven't even bought prezzies for my kuzzins! Man! Tml I'm goin to Orchard after training to buy. Hopefully can find easily lor. Oh and a VERY BIG apology to all my bball frenz for the cheapness n bad-taste-ness(?) of those prezzies i gave. Cos budget really very low yeah...when u come from a poor family. :( I'm so sorry.
yesterday had a match with Anglican. We did pretty well for the 1st 3 quartersI think...but something happened in the 4th quarter and we actually let them catch up from 10 points behind to TWO POINTS behind only! I guess we were complacent...didn't even pass properly and they kept intercepting. Oh well, then the game ended...and we won by 2 points. Sigh. Theyw eren't a very good team, honestly. We really could have beaten them by much more. They were only sec 1's and even p6's too! Nevermind, we will jia you! haha. Well i don't really know how well I played lor...missed many underbaskets, but i scored some too. Hope I'll still improve. Must not stay so lousy all the time!
Tonight there's carolling prac. 6pm. See you there charmaine!

Total spoiler. What’s the meaning of holz liddat?? WHAT IS THE FREAKIN PROB WITH TEACHERS??? They’re simply torturing us. And furthermore CHINESE. Why…of all subjects??? There’re like, 7 subjects to choose from? Why CHINESE??? HAIZ!
Aiyah, shant work myself out complaining…rather be happy + hyper lol! :D
I miss camp. x 5. I thought Justin was strangled? Oh wells! Nvm…it was interesting neeway.
New layout + taggie. Just to emphasise my point of being HEARTBROKEN!!! I still think the previous layout’s nicer…haiz. Stupid me. Shant bother. Change another time.
YOU HEARTBREAKER. Left me in the cold, crying, helpless. I’m totally lost n lonely without you by my side. Scared and afraid of what’s before me. You don’t care do ya. Well, I’ll still be waiting here for you to come back. When you realise that I deserve you. Then you’ll find me right here, with open arms, accepting you. I loved you with all my heart, but you just broke it. Just like that. I’m waiting. I’ll always be waiting.

okie dokie. finally can come online to blog about camp again. stupid. entry better not get deleted cos of stupid error again...or i'll give up.
it's been a week since it ended. Even senior camp's already over now. Sigh...really miss it. Can't wait for next year's man! I wonder what it's like to be in the camp comm. I think it's real fun even though lots of commitment is needed. haha. Talking about camp comm, yeah! Those guys did a great job man. And if you who are reading this now are from the camp comm, thankew so much!!! Well done yeah! Thx for all the effort put in... and the time taken for the preparations, that started long b4 the camp itself...n for staying up till so late every night to plan the next day's games n activities for us...
Treasure hunt was fun! At night summore...all the better. But I was like so lousy lah...didn't even find a single one...out of 45 hidden everywhere...sighers! In the end my group (uno camino [spanish] - charlotte's group) found 10. Seemed like a lot...but other groups had more. Neeway, we got 100 points for that.
2nd day- Amazing Race around S'pore! Or rather...the west side only lah. Furthest we went was West Coast Park. Wow I loved it man. Quite tiring...but all in all, it rocked! yeah. First we had to go to Rail Mall n take all the names of the shops there. Next was Bukit Panjang Plaza - had to look for some labels of shops, n take their unit no. Quite hard...we split up, and at first I went with Priscilla n Steph (Priscilla's sch friend), then later I went with Aaron. Haha! I managed to find one...lol not very liao bu qi but at least sth huh. Pathetic me. Third stop: Chinese Garden. We actually wanted to take a but there...but realised it was quite a long journey, so we stopped at Bukit Gombak, then ran to the MRT station to take MRT there instead. We were the first to arrive there! :) We had to find 3 stones, the name of the building which had some stone saying sth sth ta4 in front of it. and thirdly, what the white turtle was looking at. We took a long time to find the 3 stones. When we finished, we were like, so tired...sighs! n then Aaron helped by running all the way back to the MRT station ahead of us, to get the next clue. Thx man! I really wanted to run...but was having a stitch...sway sia. Then we had to go to West Coast park. Actually, 3 teams got there at the same time...but we went the wrong way(sigh!) so we ended up the 4th to complete that station. We had to do the obstacle course, then flying fox. Last station was back to old church. We were given some questions like the name of the pastors...kindergarten school principal...etc. Whoa, there was a mistake leh, in one of our ans. Then we rushed back to count the no. of electric fans in the sanctuary again, and luckily, we were correct! Whoa, SO jin zhang sia..then all of us were like... QIONGGGGG!!! Last lap liao man! We really cheered one another on...ran all the way back even though we were like, dying already...so tired. And guess what! When we reached the finishing line...no one else was there, except Lionel, the "station master"!!! WE WON FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! yeah!!!
Water games was fun too. Whoa the guys were so rough!!! Scary sia! They kick n beat n who noes what else...anyway in the end they decided that it wasn't fair play, so the points were just based on the no. of plastic bags we collected later...n we won! Haha not bad right? And who noes what they put in the pail sia. Soya bean milk + what else??? My poor bball tee. Luckily can wash off... :D
And best of all...the ultimate late night challenge, OF COURSE!!! Whoa charlotte, u really gave em a scare sia. I was scared by magdelene's feet! Can u imagine? Cos I went in, and I didn't look to the left where Charlotte was. I mean, you turn right to the stairs right, not left! Then I saw feet. And realised that someone was hiding. And I was about to say sth..when Priscilla n Steph started screaming. And then everyone started screaming...and me too. Why did I start screaming??? I don't even know and guess I never will. Their screams scared me I guess. LOL! Charlotte's face was painted all white...haha. We were supposed to guess the mastermind and if possible, murderer as well, of some crime. The victim, acted out by justin, got strangled. In the end, jeremy (tan ah seng) was the mastermind n his sis rosie (jane) was the murderer. We got the mastermind correct! :D
After that, we watched the tape of Singapore Idol. Taufik rocked!! Not that I support him...I still think jeassea deserved to go much further...but yeah, he does deserve the title, having improved SO much. "I dream" is a nice song yeah! Then we [amadea, eve, liz gan, grinch, ivan(not our church one), kelvin n can't rmb who else] stayed up the whole night...played cards, just sat around n crapped, watched "confessions..." for a while...n at 7 am, amadea n i fell asleep on the couch in the youth room. Haha. I couldn't take it anymore sia. But it was SO FUN!!!!!!!!!!!! Gosh, last year I almost also stayed up the whole night...but fell asleep before 6 i think.
I really miss camp...sigh!!!
details shall be kept for my diary. Tiring to write so much sia!

~heartbroken by that piece of news...~
*charmaine...i hate u! :P

he touched my face.
that's all i can say.
je l'aime. je l'aime beacoup. je l'adore!

my camp entry got deleted cos blogger got prob.
SIGH.

another time.