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It is the first Monday in the June hols. YEEHA. Quite little homework. They didn't exactly follow the no-hw policy, AS USUAL. But at least it's little. See, at least I know how to be thankful. HMMPH. Whee, what could be better, being online, blogging, listening to music. Ok, lotza things. But you get the point?
I'm still brooding over my stupid marks...uurgh. Hard to forget.
Friday was fun. HAd training till 5, cos of National Family Dinner Day. Then we had SO MUCH time to kill, so we went to Plaza Sing Pasta Mania for dinner. Ate beef bolognese spaghetti, rockin! So ex, ack, cost a bomb. Bleargh. And then we lazed around, cos we had like 4 hours till their flight. Decided to go to the airport and maybe walk around there 1st. So we took MRT there. Oh gosh, the airport station is SO NICE! So glassy and classy. Rhymes, haha. And guess what we ended up doing. PRANK CALLING. Woohoo. Sat at some chairs for around 2 hours simply prank calling. Ha, the response we got was quite funny. Athena's friends really suffered. Lol! It was funny and fun. Finally, at around 2315, we tok a sky train to terminal 1 to await the arrival of Ms Claire Chew and Ms Joelynn Ng. Quickly scramble writing the "chew-i-ng" thing on foolscap, for making us look like fools later :P It's really cute, nata! You came up with it right? And when they finally appeared at the belt....man, they spent around half an hour talking, and we were outside waiting soo (im)patiently!!! Well anyway, of course, after that crazy wait, they strolled out...haha, and we all hugged. WE MISSED YOU CLAIRE AND JOELYNN! So glad to have you guys back. Congrats man, you alll did SO WELL for world finals! Yay:)
And jamie, si hui, becky, nata and I went to athena's house to stayover. OH MY GOSH< I love her house. SO GIGANTIC! They've even got their own pool. Gee, my dream house man. Compared to our puny HDB flat here. Heh. It's so wooden and glassy too [the doors]...and 1 room's the size of my hall lah, please. SO BIG!!! Oh man, if only our house were this great. How's it like being rich? I wonder, lol. Anyway, we slept around 2+, then overslept the next day, haha. Woke up at 0715 when openhouse started at..0730. haha. Everyone got up with a start, upon realising the time it was already. Hee. We reached sch at around 8. Openhouse was real short, but quite fun I guess. The p6's really have attitude problem man. yucks, they even said that about Qian Ling? SIAO.
Saturday went to Pan Pacific to use the $40 voucher. Bought lotza chocs and cake. So YUMMY! Then went to Orchard. Bought a pair of brown slippers. $9.90 only. Ha. that I'll pron buy with the Robinsons voucher which we're getting in a few weeks. I want BOOK vouchers! We don't even get book vouchers..it's be so great to get Borders or Kinokuniya ones.
And today. Got training later. Gee, I don't feel like training! Bleargh. And I'm scared I'll just mess up all over again. Mr Ang isn't pleased with me man. You know people have off-days. I have on-days. Geddit. Every day is off-day, and occassionally I feel so high, I do quite well. gah. This is bad. Comps next month, I better buck up. Got Aljunied Cup on Saturday, Tuesday, Thursday and Saturday. Yay so fun, play in the evening outdoors. Feels like KL. So cool.
Church yesterday was fun, an ah ma's house too. Amadea didn't come in the end. Bah. It was raining so heavily...eve and ethel got soaked just walkin/running into the block. And they had to wear ah ma's boxer shorts. HA. So cute man. Helped eve with some drug/alcohol survey thingy. So rs-ish! Never thought other schools had weird stuff like us. Haha, too bad for all of us.
Checkin inet. Whoa, why so guai. But it's an excuse to come online.
Yay selena's gonna help me find Qt material. Simply journalling every day gets boring..sorry.
Long entry. Byebye.

HATE MY MARKS. I GOT SO LOW
i got B+ for history. and A for lit. AAAAAAAARGH.
They said that if you wanna be happy, be. It's all in your head. So you choose your own feelings. I can be happy if I wanna be. I am TRYING! Got report card today. It is simply horrendous. Hate my marks to the core. And I got lower than joy and kai yan. Which just makes things worse!!!!!!!!! Worked so hard with no results. Mr Mizar even wrote "Cheryl is capabale of better results next semester." My history is supposed to be GOOD. Good as in, just a bit below joy's. Oh my gosh, I can't believe my stupidity.
Oh man I geuss I just gotta learn to forget the past and just aim for better results next semester. "It's when things seem the worst that you mustn't quit!"
I've got homework. GAH, IT'S THE 2ND LAST DAY OF SCH MAN! Sheesh! You see why I hate History? And Chinese and Maths. Even worse. Got holiday perf task . FREAK THE TEACHERS, whatever happened to the no-homework policy???
I am just in a foul mood. Stupid school.

I am tuning out, totally. Not caring about my schoolwork. Sigh. Getting sian of blogging too, cos that's basically what I've been doing the whole period after the exams. And we're getting our report cards back like tomorrow, or one of these days. I don't wanna look at it. I'll faint.
Oh yay I finally wrote manda her testi. After she waited for dunno how long..haha sry gal.
Turned out that everyone else was slacking the whole weekend too, I was sleeping through both days. But I would have much preferred slacking in the sense of going out or watching a ovie or sth liddat, not being stuck, sick, at home and sleeping. Sigh.
We were supposed to bring our jerseys today? Oh no. For phototaking? Aah well. I'm not the only one anyway. Guess we'll still wear our black bball tees. When are we getting this year's bball tee? Or is there any new tee? I love the current one anyway.
I've got a terrible cough now. There's so much phlegm in my throat! And every time I cough my throat hurts like crazy. Yikes.
Gonna be nice and write ppl testis now, so that they'll have to write for me :P Haha, morally wrong? Wrong intentions. Kant's theory!!

Whee. I realise today's full moon day. What's with me and full moons, lol.
Ack. I haven't done History essay, cos Kai Yan wasn't online and I didn't now how we're splitting it. And so, tomorrow I'll have to qiong studying chinese, qiong history essay and qiong maths WS 8. Eeks eeks! Hate the feeling of incomplete things hanging around.

I failed lit and history. What a failure. I failed humanities. How wrong that is. And LIT. How could I possible make that STUPID CARELESS MISTAKE. Who ever heard of being careless in lit?! Cost me 4 marks or so. I sure know how to throw marks away like that. Missed A+. I hate it. And History. I dunno what to say man. Just another throwing away of marks again.
Sigh.
I wish I could give up, but no. Perseverance. I never realised it was that hard.
I don't even feel motivated to try harder next term already. I blew it badly this time, and even if I tell myself I've got 1 more chance, I don't think it helps cos I'm already so demoralised.
I am such a failure.

MSN messenger has got a problem. Keeps signing out all of a sudden.

I'm sick! But much better than the weekend though. Had serious fever of 38+degrees, and sore throat and headache. Was "bedridden" for 2 whole days...it hurt even to walk or stand up. 2 of the most miserable days in my life! And the worst thing is, it was such a nice LONG weekend, with one more holiday today [Vesak day]. And my illness had to ruin the whole thing. Could have done my hw on Saturday[there were only 2 pieces!], and gone out yesterday and today. Sigh. I seldom fall sick...and when I do it's disaster. And today I'm better, though not fully recovered, but I can't go out cos I gotta do hw. Eeks. Bad timing to fall sick. If only I go back to school then gang hao fall sick...can skip sch!
May not go training on Wednesday. Can't afford to fall more sick, no matter how much I wanna train.
It hurts to talk. I totally lost my voice, and when I try to speak, I either squeak or whisper or growl softly.
Didn't go to church too. So sad.

Anyway. I gotta do History essay.

Doing bio. On alcohol. How stupid. And sarah, is it ok already? Why can't it be sent?
I'm tryin my best not to spend too much time online cos it's not cheap and we are not rich.
And it's hard.
Anway. I still haven't gotten over my sadness over my lit marks. And geog and history. Why am I doing so badly in humans? As in humanities. Didn't get A+ for lit nor geog. Didn't even get an A for geog! Like what the! How stupid am I? And I love humans so much, and I tried SO HARD, and I studied SO HARD, and this is all I get. You know how DISAPPOINTING IT IS? You know how DEMORALISING IT CAN GET? I hate it. Hate it all! And tomorrow we're getting back our History pt. I'd rather not get it back. Too much to take in one week. Especially since I already know I didn't do well for that. Aargh. So disappointed in myself. Let myself down. And English too. how horrible is that??
I failed 4 subjects out of 7. Wow. I'm so impressed by my intelligence.
Success comes to those who persevere.
You only fail when you give up.
Real failure is when you fall and don't pick yourself up.
I want I can.
If ONLY! If ONLY I could think that way! It's chao saddening when you try so hard and don't get reults you desire!
Well I gtg. Sleep time!
*snoooooooooze.

i HATE my father.
I'm sorry. NO I'm not. I don't care. He is one stupid STUPID freak.
Ok enough of hatred. I never hate. NAd when I hate, watch out.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

And YOU. Can you pls like stop blaming me for things I never did. It's chao irritating.

It's not nice being pissed. Or angry.

Anyway. It's geog lesson now, and Mrs Ho's not here, so I am using the com in the Raffles room. Hee. I failed my Lit test. like, of all subjects fail LIT! Sheesh! It was supposed to be one of my best. Aargh, hate my grades. And it was on POEMS, which just rocks, but I don't rock at it. Well, I can blame it on not bothering to study cos I really didn't. But anyway, the point is I failed, and THAT IS BAD. And have I mentioned my geog marks are horrible too? Oh well. I'm trying not to care.

Whee this keyboard is so nice to type on.
yayy! this is me by the way. The geog teacher's not here! Whee! hope she stays sick and doesn't come tomorrow either. Hee hee. Whee! yayy!
That was just joy as crappy as ever. You know I don't write like that.
Sarah thx for that cd :) Christian cd's rock. Yay.
Vanessa thx for the tag.
Oh wow look what I found out!! Ctrl U is underline!! Ahaha...
Look what my friends have done to me, influenced me to become so crappy. Yes JOY. hint.hint.

It' recess now. Haha, I dun wanna go, cos i wanna piss joy off.

I've got about 10 pages left of the book I'm reading. And gosh it is SO INTERESTING!!!! Read until I can't put it down, and everywhere I go I'm engrossed i it. Just now after science I was going doenthe stairs and one teacher was like,"What book are you reading that's so interesting?" And when I showed her, she asked if it was from the school library and said she thinks she's read it b4. Lollers. Com studs now...not as early as usual. Microsoft excel? Weird. What relevance has it got to movie-making huh. And I am reminded that our dear movie isn't uploaded yet. Hah.
Haven't gone online for about 1 week, since that sick day Tuesday. Still owe manda a testi=] Sorry dahhling! Seldom go online nowadays! Went for the funfun ORA funfair on Saturday. Bbal had water games, all we did was stand behind chairs and throw sponges at the other side! So lame, but really fun! And jamie got me drenched like a chicken. We just hogged sponges and squeeezed them over each other's heads. Woo, I was wet and cold. Haha, laughed till my stomach hurt. Badly.
I got a wristband from our stall too/ It's like chao dumb, don't think I'll even dare to wear it! It says,"LIVE LONG". Like ERH, bad horrible atttempt to rhyme with live strong! Man, it's so stupid. Dark blue in colour anyways. I got my reddish-orange wristband...from mini toons. it doesn't say anything. I love the colour though. =]
And at night, I went to Suntec with Deborah. Had dinner at some funny restaurant, dunno if we paid anything. Seems like they treated us, haha. It was ok, we went there cos the food court was simply TOO CROWDED. What do you expect at that kind of time in a place like Suntec. Then we went to Carrefour. Then Tower Records.
And yesterday. Charmaine came to ah ma's house. Hahaha I've this thing for convincing ppl huh. Hee. Charmaine you're NICE=D. THANKEW! And had to borrow Chinese TB cos I got ting xie but didn't bring it home. Smart me right. didn;t have WOW service cos it was Baptism Sunday and so we went to ah ma's house mush earlier, but we went to Westmall 1st. Look here look there and went to the library. I've got new books to read!!Yeeha! Though with the amount of time of hw they give us each day, I wonder when I'll actually find the time to read all of them. 'Pretend you don't see her' rocks!!! [the book I'm reading now]
And after ah ma's house, my mum and I went to westmall again. Cos we had to buy my food for breakfast today. Teehee. Looked in Valu$, so ultra cheapo their stuff, and I got a new bag=]=]
Last week was NAPFA 5 items. It rocked! Like the 1st time in years, I managed to get that sacore!!! YAYYY. My IPU was seriously uexpected. Actually, everything was very very unexpected, just that IPU was the best surprise ever. I guess training weights in bball helped a bit, plus those push-ups and extra weights I'd done at ro's house a week b4 the PFT. Didn't think it helped, and maybe it didn't, but that doesn't matter, what matters is that I did well and I'm HAPPY with my PFT score!!! Lalala. My standing broad jump was nice too. Heh, jumped further than I thought I could. Super farni.
And we still had training after that. Oh man, selections for team is only like, weeks away [top 15]. I just think I don't have a big chance of getting in...cos every training I don't do well, at all. And Mr Ang didn't seem happy with my performance the past few weeks. This is so scary. Die liao lah.
Anyway... got many test results back already, Actually, only lit is left, and History pt. What we've gotten back:
maths
nature of science pt
physics eoi
physics pt [electricity]
chinese [just got back today]
geog test
Well, can't say I'm really sad, as I always am...can't say I'm very happy either. Not exactly satisfied with geog marks especially. And I think I could have done better for Nature of Science pt. I blame that on the toot terribly unreasonable and ridiculous teacher of mine. Grr.
Eye test! Sigh my left eye is not perfect. It like has emotions and mood swings...alternates between 6/6 and 6/9 every year. But my right eye is ok and I plan on keeping it that way, Yay. Whoch means I have to be careful not to read in the dark, strain my eyes, go to near to a book when I'm reading /writing...etc. Lol. Sound like some doctor lecturing ppl on myopia.
Wheee. Do I have anything left to say? Nice long entry eh. Off I go to write manda's testi now...finally.=]
Ciaaao.

here's a bigbig warning to everyone who comes here. I may change url AGAIN very soon! =] haha, I know I'm real fickle-minded but sorry! So pls don't mind re-linking me all over again! :P

Didn't go to school today. Feels so weird to be at home when I know I'm supposed to be in school doing crappy subjects like aesthetics n cle n rs. Lol. Didn't go for sl either.
Anyway. I think I shall go offline now. When I just came on. Hmm. Cos I dunno which part of mad cow disease [haha] I'm doing, and how to download graphmatica. So I'll come at night then, and ask ppl. Everyone's still at school.
Blahblahblah. Cya.

It is wasting my precious time online here. HATE DIAL-UP. Everyone else could download it in seconds k. Irritating!!!!!! Supposed to be doing my philo journal. HATE THIS.
Stupid, we really have very valid reasons to ask for an extension lor!
http://www.glenbrook.k12.il.us/gbssci/phys/Class/circuits/u9l2c.html
http://www.allaboutcircuits.com/vol_1/chpt_2/1.html
Sigh. Sigh.

She stared into the empty darkness
The gazillion stars twinkling in the sky
The streetligts glowing brightly
The yellow dots of moving vehicles
She thought

Scibble. Doodle. Think.
Think.
Plink.
Forty-nine percent.
Crush.
Crumple.
Smack. Whack.
Ouch.
A failure.

They glared at her, weird freak.
The floor was the only thing she
glued her eyes upon.
A black snowflake.

He slammed the bottle into the sink.
Screamed at her like a monster.
Beat her already-bruised arms.
That familiar stench...of beer.
A broken family.

She stared into the mournful blackness
The gazillion stars twinkling in the sky
The streetligts glowing brightly
The yellow dots of moving vehicles
She let go.

Fallen.

Joy just abandoned me. Thanks Joy. So kind of you.
At ro's house. And crapping. They're watchin some duno what show. And i'm feeling super guilty cos I'm supposed to be doing homework cos I don't have much time over the weekend, and physics pt is due on Monday. Gee, I am stressed after eoi's. Well.
-Physics pt
-Philo journal
-CLE journal
-Science reflections
-History debate (much later, don't care)
Going to join them.
Can' t stand the prob with my tagboard. Dunno what you're typin.

EOI'S ARE OVER. This feeling of exhilaration, excitement, happiness, relief, thankfulness, UN-STRESSNESS is simply indescribable!!! Of course, I have still the Physics pt, Philo journal, and History debate to think about, but why in the world do I wanna spoil the mood now.
Ok let's review them carefully. I don't see any point in it, just for fun :P

Lit: I didn't study enough. Wasn't prepared. Mistakes made in the essay: 1.Didn't talk anything about growing up, only focused on the "simple hell" part. 2. Didn't stated "how far I agree", only agreed w/o other side. But then again, this is not History, so maybe it's not necessary. I hope. 3/ I may not have answered the question very relevantly. My usual prob in essays. Capable of writing a lot...of crap.

Chinese: Well! WHAT CAN I SAY. I flunked the whole thing. Nothing was even OK for me, except the 1st 2 sections. Everything else was bad. Very bad. It was all ke wai, how am I supposed to know??! They even tested CONFUCIUS QUOTES. Like what the! zhi zi wei zi zhi, zbu zhi wei bu zhi, si zhi ye. SIGH. Got the whole thing wrong lah. Fail liao man. Chang wen suo duan was ok. I wrote exactly 52 words!! Hooray=] Cloze passage was as usual, horrible. My vocab range is just...the size of an ant? And everything else, can't remember and don't bother to.

Maths: Overall ok. Harder than I expected but still can. HATE MATHS. I got the indices question wrong!! How stupid, didn't do the correct method so I won't even get any marks at all. And the last question!!! 2^15x5^13!!! I actually didn't know how to do it lor. My indices is just bleargh. Anyway, haha! I got it correct by doing it almost manually!!! SMART ME. 2^5x2^5x2^5x5^5x5^5x5^3. I was almost there already! And I didn't even see it. SMART ME. My teacher will be like...how in the world could you not spot that?!

Ok. And from here, there shall be no more talk about schoolwork.
After Maths, we went to Orchard. Walked from far east to wisma to taka to heeren to cine and back to school. Had lunch at taka mac's and took neos at heeren. No time limit. Over-decorated the poor pix haha. =) Very nice though.

After International Science competition was training. So sian man, no one felt like training! We just wanted to lie around and sleeeep. Yawn. Right after eoi's!! They had konked our brains out enough already thank you. At first we watched a video on "Basketball for women". Real cool, learnt some funnyfunny techniques we can apply. Though they seem so ZAI, like not the kind I can do in the long run. Training was ok. HATE THE 1ST PART. Cos I'm just HORRIBLE AT IT!!! Frustrating. But after that we got to play games!!! =] Best of all. And as usual, I was against Jamie...wham. NEVER get to be on her team!!

On Friday we're going to the Indoor Stadium. For wild cats sthsth. Pardon me, I think I heard the name wrongly. Anyway it's bball!! Australia, Jordan, Korea, China. COOLNESS yup! And Sunday there's more. Other countries too. YAY=] The feeling of end of eoi rocks! And I stayed back so late today to continue training. Seldom get to do that cos I always need to rush home or I'll reach home at 8pm. So fun=]

Pay to relax. How weird and wrong does that sound? Like I have to pay to come online, to relax. Cos yah, I don't have broadband. Sheesh, sounds so stupid. But I just can't help it! NEED to come here!

I have a new bigbig wish. Pierce ears!! Crazy obsessions that always pop up out of nowhere. But i can't spend money...Family's financial stae currently in huge trouble. It's been 2 months..no response, no chance, no nothing. Sigh. Keeps repeating. Can't he ever do something right???

At long last, I'm changing skin. It has always been "after eoi"...and finally it's here, for real.

--ciao.