27 June 2005
11:10 PM
it was pure luck, pure luck, simply pure luck.
I don't even feel all that happy I got in. Sigh...it's just really complex. Like, so what? I don't know. Jeanhui now I know what it feels like. I'm so unhappy. So unsatisfied still.
I didn't even deserve to get in. What am I doing in there??
I'll probably be kicked out even before nationals. I mean, seriously, everyone's improving greatly while I'm stagnant. Or getting worse.
I'm like the worst centre on the team anyway. Nothing compared to them all. I don't think I'll remain on the team for nationals. Just pure luck, pure luck...
Work hard
Persevere.
