09 September 2005
10:11 PM
blessed be Your namein the land that is plentifulwhere Your streams of abundance flowblessed be Your nameblessed be Your namewhen i'm found the desert placethough i walk through the wildernessblessed be Your nameevery blessing You pour outi'll turn back to praisewhen the darkness closes in Lordstill i will sayblessed be the name of the Lordblessed be Youe nameblessed be the name of the Lordblessed be Your glorious nameblessed be Your namewhen the sun's shining down on mewhen the world's all as it should beblessed be Your nameblessed be your nameon the road marked with sufferingthough there's pain in the offeringblessed be Your nameYou give and take awayYou give and take awaymy heart will choose to sayLord blessed be Your nameWhen I think bout prioroties, I always say "God first".
But do I really mean it?
No, I don't, not at all.
It's like it' programmed in my mind, tape recorder format, just say it outta habit. But I really don't act as if it is. I fail to act like a Christian, do things God's way, obey Him, I even don't bother about QT so often. And I say that I love Him. He doesn't get what He deserves at all.
I wrote all these in my diary already. Don't wanna repeat.
Just finished my lit handout. Got yue du bao gao, lit questions, study history left.
Not bad eh. I don't feel like doing lah.
Where should I draw the line between relaxation and work? Like, I really wanna slack like siao like others and commit more to bball, but my conscience says no, I gotta do well in studies. And I hate that. I hate working hard. Especially when all I get back is failure and more failure. So a part of me wants to go out tomorrow and heck care my homework left. But the pther part says that I've slacked enough and better discipline myself and stop procrastinating.
Urgh. Think I'll stay at home.
We get free gelato sihui and nata and dew!! Is it dew? Can't remember, anyway the people who were at estivo that day after athena's house. Hahaha. Sleeping beauties. LOL. So that guy was serious.
Man busted sms-es yesterday. Hahaha. WHOOPS. I got no self-control. Was too bored.
Rat race is fun!!!
:)
I'm gonna sleep early today. For once.
Whole day today doing homework already.
I feel weird without training. Monday gonna continue already anyway:)
-joy owes me $4 and vinna $5. TSK. hinthint.
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