God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

Agenda for monday:
1. find out whether most of class are free on 13-16 dec
2. find out how many are staying over
3. find out who's coming on which day/night
4. BOOK CHALET!!!

Agenda for tuesday's meeting:
1. plan amazing race
-pit-stops
-activites [briefly]
-teams
-designate welfare comm members at each pit-stop
2. plan chalet events
-currently: tues cycle then stay and play in chalet, wed amazing race, thur escape, fri most will prob be sound asleep(:
3. plan food stuff
-what to buy for bbq
-cost
-settle halal food thing for Muslims - they bbq or get their own food?
-where to eat if not eating at chalet

Chalet events:
1. amazing race - wed
2. cycling - tues
3. escape - thur
4. stay in and play cards/murderer - tue/fri
night
1. play truth or dare
2. go out for night walk
3. go beach sit and talk
4. sit outside chalet and chat
5. play murderer? [haha]

Things to do:
diary
book chalet - confirm no. of rooms and dates
plan amazing race
read library books
CAP application form
CAP portfolio
inform chanyi and gek khim about camp worship
do the dg homework about biblical history and purpose of life? sth liddat.
SLEEP.
think somemore?
DO somemore.

Yayy special thanks to mandahleeng who found out that there are actually available chalets. And MANY available ones in fact. So anti-climax lah sigh. So we're deciding between 3D2N and 2D1N. And how we're gonna split the room into those who wanna sleep and those who don't. Unless we get a 2-room or double-storey flat? Sigh, confused.

Went out with my mum. Got a lovely Christian book about teen issues and finding God in them, and a delirious? cd!!! "Deeper". COOL. Used the money I got for my birthday from my aunt, grandma and mum. And my mum bought 2 pairs of slippers for herself and let me share them, so I can wear them too. Birkies! Woots:)

And!! At long last I've got a new water bottle! Transparent nike. It cost only $8. Spent $30 at isetan [the slippers] to get that. Whee love it. It was the last piece left! Am I lucky or am I lucky:) Cheap sia. Like about 1/2 price. Finally can do away with plastic bags for my leaky adidas bottle hahaha.

Woke up so late today, about 10+. Actually was awake from 9.30 but I lay in bed thinking and thinking and thinking more. And feeling a great sense of sadness and regret. Refused to get up till I was done thinking, which seemed never to come so in the end I forced myself to get up and face the world. And the whole day was just online and going out.
I'm tired, so tired.
These days have been real depressing.

So, welfare comm is going to sarah's house on tuesday to discuss amazing race and chalet stuff. Many who are in welfare comm didn't even know they are, haha. Smarto. Did I mention sarah's house is nice? And her room rocks too, minus the posters:)

Planning the chalet stuff is fun but really tiring. Haha, and I only mean today. Lots more to come:) The last time as 208 together:((

Got psl training on 16 decc. FREAK. I don't wanna miss chalet! And now I realise that I have to sleep at night since I've got to save energy for training the next day. Now add the psl training thing in the morning. FREAK. I don't know what to do. Yikes, PANIC.

I am not even doing anything meaningful these days, all I ever do at home is come online and get hooked for hours blogging, blog-surfing ,playing around on friendster, checking email, sending email, chatting...somehow I can't think straight with all the depression. This is bad.

5 more days.

I miss sleeping.
I just wanna sit still and clear every nagging thought outta my head.

I never wanna let go.

It's too early to leave, and it's too late to regret.

Looking back, the journey has been extremely wonderful, and now that it's coming to an end, I just want it to go on longer.
One more chance, at least?

Really <3 you guys and don't wanna part indeed, but well, have to accept the harsh reality. Anyway I'm glad at least we DID become more bonded all of a sudden at the end of the year, better late than never right? I really treasure everything and all the effort put in for netball carn and drama night[even though it was messed up!] xD

Had training yesterday and it was pretty slack, except for the 5 rounds on the track at the end of it. We were even released early! Once in never! Cause mr ang had to rush off for something. But "today is just a warm up ok...next week we're gonna start physical already!"
Haha, do I dread that or do I dread that?
But anyway, it's great to be back on courts after the long break that sitting at home surrounded by textbooks and notes seemed more important. Not like it did me any good. I don't wanna study, it never helps me. WHATEVER.
I cannot do without basketball! But I can definitely do without studies:)

And sarah said her training was cancelled just because they were clearing the o level tables. And the students themselves cancelled training? Like, WHOA?? Such thing. Haha. What happened to the authority of teachers and the coach? Funny.

Stayed online for hours at night, until about 1 am +! And I was debating with sarah over keita and reita and jap bands and jay and don't know what else. Super long and boring and tiring convo man. She wants us to go to her house to watch keita and jay and admire her posters? Dots. I don't mind going to her house though! Haha. So huge and so nice, love the atmosphere.
Yesterday she couldn't stop tickling me, cause she was over happy to finally find out where I was ticklish. Yep, blogged about this already. Vinna says sarah and I should NEVER be left alone together. HAHA and you know why of course. That day we fought over her computer. Cause she was ruining my reputation by tagging certain stuff on vinna's blog! GRRAAH. Ahahaha.

Going out with my mum later. She's buying birkies! Yay:)

Haven't planned our oth marathon yet. We should like do it in sarah's house, and show her what kinda thing is nicer to watch than KEITA. Haha.

I don't wanna let go.
I don't wanna leave it behind.
The memories fall away like autumn leaves ferociously blown away in the strong winds of time.
I don't wanna go.

This week has been really great, tiring, yet ultra fun and memorable as the 2nd last week of us as 208.
Monday We spent the morning writing the drama script and distributed roles and all the logistics stuff, didn't practise at all[drama night prelims were a failure but let's not talk about that shall we]. Afternoon had netball friendly games with other sec 2 classes like 201, 205, 204, some gepper class. Trained netball till about 5+ then it started to storm heavily so we all left. I hadn't worn proper sports socks or at least thick socks and thus, my huge-toe-sized blister came about from that day. It was highly GROSS and I had to pull the dead skin a bit to put on the plaster and it HURT LIKE CRAP, please. Anyway, I don't think I should go into detail:P Those watching me that day were freaked out enough. From monday to yesterday I'd been limping around and being immobile is seriously NOT FUN. And super inconvenient to get around within a quick time frame. I was like lagging behind everyone all the time. Plus, it was really hard to balance on one foot while fighting with sarah. She had a great advantage over me.
It was great cause we were doing stuff together as class aiming for a common goal. [And netball was a HUGE success xD]
Reached home really late for the 1st of 5 days and was drained from the day in school so I came online for a while, talked to some ppl in a really pissed mood then went to conk off to zzz.

Tuesday Did drama stuff in the morn, many of them got super sian and started playing cards. We practised the netball cheers and rocked the place man. Could hear them from the stairs like OH MAN that really overwhelmed me. Afternoon, trained netball. Realised that our ball was lost and had a mass hunt for it yet didn't find it. Then a horrible thunderstorm started and we were stuck for almost an hour in the class; many had to leave, then after that the rain subsided and we went back down to shoot around with a ball sarah found [that rhymed!] Only pingfang, sarah, manda, linlin and i were left. And there were no courts so we simply trained passing/defending/running stuff on the track and I fell down cause it was so slippery, to add to the pain of my blister. Shot around a lot and found sarah's hidden talent in shooting!! As in, she kept saying she was just tyco getting on her shots but they were so not tyco. So we decided that it'd be great if we could put her as a GS when she got tired from C. Haha smart right:) So cool, she can shoot. Then we got chased off the downstair courts so we went up to the tennis courts where there were SUPER LOUSY netball nets that were dented in places such that it's harder to shoot. Everyone was tired of shooting so we sat down and talked lotsa crap while linlin shot and sarah and pf kept laughing at her. They went off earlier, leaving sarah and I alone and we talked somemore. Until about 5+ or 6 when it started to rain so we left.
Really fun.
And that night I took out my dead skin and my blister hurt SO BADLY I couldn't put my foot down on the ground without yelping in agony. Called vanessa to say I think I may not be able to play tomorrow cause I can't even walk, what more run. And GUESS WHAT! She had a worse injury! Her back was sprained? during her training, so bad that she couldn't get up from the floor. We both panicked and thought, that's it, we're not playing tomorrow. HAHA. And we won 2nd. WOOTS.

Wednesday!!! Needless to say, it was netball carn, we played well as a team08, and it was a fantastic opportunity to show CLASS SPIRIT:) Which at long last, everyone did!! XD Feeling high and super happy and elated about netball, everyone was very enthu about choral speaking prac that afternoon. I'd left to go to church, and I heard it was really good. Then went to sarah's house!!

Thursday Results day. Nothing to say.
Went to ro's house after sch and drama prac and just blogged the whole time then came home.

Friday Drama Nite prelims, badly done but I will just say this, if we had practised it to perfection, it would have been a BLAST [quoted from joelynn], cause everything except the choral speaking was fantastic already. So it was really wasted, cause we had had that oportunity. Well. Principal's address was dumb, about the raising of school fees. They think we're some rich bunch of kids that can spend money all we want, moreover on school . MY FOOT! [the foot with the gross blister:P]
And today sarah finally found the right spots to tickle me. Or rather, she'd found them on wednesday and was just having fun and being proud of it today. She practically killed me with tickles the whole day lah. She dragged me along to stand with her during morning assembly to kill me for saying keita sounds like a girl, I sat in front of her for drama nite prelims, cause she forced me to so that she could kachiau me, she appeared next to me after prelims and started poking the devil forks into my hair and everywhere and tickled me again, tried to write on my face twice in the morn, tickled me somemore during principal's address. Nothing's ever enough for both of us:) We're never gonna stop fighting. Maybe not even next year. Haha.
"Never knew you were so ticklish."
"You never knew cause you never tried."
HAHAHA.

Came home late every day, cause I was either in school for netball or in someone's house crapping. Never came home straight after dismissal.
I'm actually looking forward to school now since I wanna make the most of the time left with 208. We're parting in 5 DAYS.

It's really sad.

Anyway, I think this is nicer to write in my diary than to blog about so farewell!

You never miss the water till the well runs dry.
I'm gonna miss 208 A WHOLE LOT.

I don't feel like blogging, goodbye.

netball carn.
WE WON 2ND
I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT
I HADN'T EXPECTED IT

Not only that, we got 1st for banner painting and 2nd for shooting. Yay.

208 I LOVE YOU GUYS!
YOU ROCKED NETBALL CARN GUYS.
I really thought we were kinda dead, since the Malays couldn't play every game and save us unlike last year's 1st few games, plus the fact that vanessa and i were both pretty badly injured [her back and finger and my big-toe-sized blister]. Was so so so elated when we were winning game after game, though the ties were quite disappointing.And we only lost to 204 which was all my fault, but anyway it was really a miracle sent by God that we got 2nd.
Vanessa did SO WELL despite her super scary back injury. And I played GA and GS when my blister got too painful to bear with.
YAYYYYY.

THANK YOU LORD(:

It really proves that winners are INDEED people with the willpower to hold on till the end even if things don't turn out good in the 1st place. And they still dare to fight all out to aim for the best no matter what, because they've got the right attitude. [Credits to bball for teaching me that(:]
I really really love 208!

Yest'd went to sarah's house. And thanks to her all-so-wonderful directions, I got lost in Pandan valley. got off 2 bus-stops early. And had to walk a long distance with a terribly-aching blistered foot that had gottne worse from netball and fighting.
I'm violent, beware of me. :)

I made her sleep late, cause I left at about 2245. Heh sorry. feel so bad lah.

We stayed up watching keita pv's and some anime which I got really bored of. I have to admit keita can sing and dance even though I'm set on spiting sarah. :( I hope she doesn't see this. :)
He sounds like a girl sometimes when he sings those high high high songs though:P Sarah even has keita poker cards, woh.

OH YES here's a record. After about 1 1/2 years of trying, sarah managed to piss me off. APPLAUSE. Like, REALLY piss me off. Not piss actually, but just made me burst. Cause I was already very affected by lit marks and she sparked me off.
Whee not bad.
That's why it's fun to fight with sarah cause she can never succeed in pissing me off. Hahaha.

We got back results today. Don't ask or say anything to me. I wouldn't have put that her it's just to recount today in school.

I'm in ro's house.
To be continued.
I haven't even continued the shopping outing post, hahaha.

I hate my lit marks.

Drama night.
GO FOR IT :)
i <3 208.

Netball carn.
PLAY YOUR BEST. PLAY ALL OUT!

Yawn. Sleeeepy. Slept at 3. Almost had horrible sinus attack but God saved me after I prayed about 3 times. :)) God is good all the time amen!
Worship was different in setting. Closer to congregation. Eve and ethel and a few others said they prefer it this way. We're really considering leaving it be. Haha COOL!


to be continued again.

It's over. It's done.
Said sam to frodo at the fires of Mount Doom.
:)
SAYS ME!

It's over.
It's done.
How wonderful a feeling.

Thank You Lord
for taking us through,
for staying by our sides each and every day
as we
mugged,
sighed in frustration,
weren't able to fall asleep every night,
sat at the exam tables poring over the papers,
cried over the tough papers,
rejoiced over the good ones,
jumped for joy at the end of everything.

We give You praise.

This morning I awoke and thought to myself, so what's the plan for today? And I was about to prepare my to-do list. Cracked my brain thinking and pondering.
Then I realised there's NO HOMEWORK.
Like, WOW.
Nothing to do.

It rocks.

It's great.

Thank You Lord indeed.

And for the nice lil shopping outing for 9 HOURS with vin and ro and ky and joy and vonne tan and rita and boya and sihui.
We walked from far east to john little and took 9 hours to do so. Far east, wisma, taka, esprit, cine, heeren, urban warehouse, john little. We went to practically every single shop that was in our way.
There's this lovely Christian store at far east level 4. Lovely:) But we forgot to go back there as we planned to after lunch, heh. Another time.
We looked around all the scary ah lian shops in far east for earrings. Couldn't find anything nice sadly. [but i did later!!]
Orchard popular. Went to aries with vinna to look for earrings, but they're so NOT NICE too. And she had some uber lame loser jokes about virgo being nicer than aries. -_-"! Then we found ro and joy amusing themselves with the guiness book of world records. And there were some kinda DISGUSTING ones like a guy who had about a million body piercings. EEEEW. I'm really thankful I've gotten my ears pierced.
In wisma we looked at earrings in bits and pieces. SO EX yucks. Won't pay so much for them, even though they're like good quality or whatever. Not necessary:) And we watched a young girl getting her ears pierced, sitting at the exact same spot I was in 3 weeks ago. And when I heard the gun bang it brought back scary memories. Actually, it's not the memory that was scary, but the bang sound. As I heard it yest'd I don't know how that day I managed to stand there and hold sihui's hand and watch the gun needle[whatever it's called] go through her, feel her squeeze me, and then go get mine pierced. It sounded so painful yest'd. Laughs. I felt so relieved mine were pierced. Maybe it's cause people like ky and vinna were blabbering about how her ear was red and the shot sounded painful and all that, and I got influenced. I'm pretty easily influenced:) Ahaha. I'm glad mine are done:), esp after the guiness thing too! And I kinda took a risk to leave nothing in my ear for a out a day and then switch my earrings about 10 times and wear danglys when my hole is merely <3 [less than 3! haha that looks like HEART so cute!] weeks young! Considering vinna's bled when she'd tried that, sihui's hole almost closed and her earring couldn't get in again properly, and others got infections. I think my ears are really insensitive:) No infections, no pain, no bleeding, no hole-closing.
Yay!
In taka joy, vin and ro went to get a drink then I went with ky to get a YUMMY potato bun from St. Leavens. Yes, no one goes crazy over a bun, but this one's really good. Limited edition! Haven't found it anywhere else. And we met vonne tan, rita and boya for the 2nd time. Esprit!! Vinna and I saw this SUPER NICE sleeveless white shirt that costs $9.90. ESPRIT $9.90 SHIRT! Woh! But we were saving money for other things, so sadly we had to leave it behind. SO WASTED. yi yi bu she de li kai.
In cineleisure we took neos. Really cute and farni neos. 8 people squeezing into a small lil space:) So we took double. And after that we cheated and went into neoprint booths and used ro's cam to take pics ourselves. Ahaha I've got SO MANY crap ones with ky. Weird poses and some really malu-ating ones:) Thanks to her and her creative imagination ;) Ro: HINT!
After taking neos we walked around looking for more earrings. Not many, quite boring in fact. Then everyone except vinna and ro and I decided that they wanted to go home. It was about 6+ by that time. We really took a very long time in each shopping centre.
Went to heeren to get vinna her pencil case!! Specially recommended by me:)) And it's SO NICE AAH! Myuk pencil case for $5.90! Am I good or am I good at finding cheap stuff ?? :) It's black and big and there're "myuk" words everywhere. It is NICE NICE NICE NICE NICE. Vinna. I'm positively jealous.

Lunchtime.
to be continued...

Do not let your fire go out, spark by irreplaceable spark in the hopeless swaps of the not quite, the not yet, and the not at all.
Do not let the hero in your soul perish in lonely frustration for the life you deserved and have never been able to reach.
The world you desire can be won.
It exists.
It is real.
It is possible.
It is your's.

-lucas

ravens. no regrets.

credits to nata :)
http://www.twiztv.com/scripts/onetreehill/

LUCAS <3<3<3
even his voice is hot!! :)

8 down 1 to go.
Omgosh, that sounds terrific.
Just on monday I was like, *SIGH* 1 down, 8 to go.
And look where we've ended up!
WOOTS!

Well, I could say it's over.
[1] eoy's are OVER since i'm not caring about maths [well, not yet, i'll prac later]
[2] i practically flunked lit and chinese

lit.
I walked into the exam room knowing I was a goner.
I knew I was a goner as I wrote each and every sentence on my script.
I answered out of point.
I didn't answer the question.
I wrote a whole lot of CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP CRAP.
I didn't finish the paper with pride.
I didn't do a perfect job within the 1 hour.
I didn't do the best I wanted to do at least, since people always say nothing's perfect or can be perfect.
I reluctantly pressed the paper into zhanghao's hands, wishing i never had to look at the piece of disappointment ever again. But i have to and i dread it.
I walked out of the exam room knowing it was all a complete mess-up. A horrible pissifying frustrating demoralising disappointing wasted effort. That script was just A PIECE OF NOTHING.
I'm prepared to see a friggin 14/25 next wednesday.
I gave up.
I've given up.

Chinese wasn't that bad, since I never aimed to do well for it anyway. I'm prepared to get 40+/110 anyway. It was kinda BAD, worse than lit, but I don't care about chinese, so that doesn't matter.

But lit, lit was just plain horrendous. So much for an A+.
I never should have wished.
Whatever!! I stink at lit.

As I said, I'm simply gonna prac some maths questions later for a few hours. I need to do super well for maths too. I need my A+.
Well, so much for a 3.7 gpa too!

I can't wait for tomorrow to end. I mean, including the stupid principal address, netball and drama prac. That'll take up the hole morning, PISSIFYING.
Then it's shopping trip! :)
Check point: FAR EAST PLAZA.
Destination: PLAZA SINGAPURA.

Went to the school library with ky and jessica after friggin lit today. Borrowed [northern light] and [curoius incident] :)) Finally some nice + substantial books.
I LOVED anita shreve's [light on snow] it was just SO wonderful. I hardly manage to find such good books. It was simply great. :) I wanna get more books by her, the covers themselves rock.
I need a nice long trip to the National Library once again. Although only 1 outta 13 floors of books can be borrowed eh, LOL.
I love reading.
I miss reading.
Haven't read like siao since p6, and probably that short 2 weeks JUST BEFORE EOY'S which I read 2 beautiful books, [lost and found] and [light on snow].

AND I finally took out my earrings! [the very 1st studs] Had quite a hard time pinching the teeny-weeny thing at the back. Plus that irritating lock thingy. And my left hand was so sweaty it just kept slipping LOL. Hahaha. And I tried on my dangly earrings. What a joke! :)

Really can't wait for tomorrow. CAN YOU?
relief.
joy.
excitement.
calmness.
relaxation.
OVERWHELMING.

Should I change my blogskin? At long last, I'm getting sick of seeing the same thing every time i type in www.takethatshot.blogspot.com [lol.] so if i can find a nice-enough one to replace it, I will. And TODAY! :))
So I have NO right to scold chanyi for changing her blogskin in the midle of exams.
I thought it'd be the last thing I'd do, at a time like this.
But well! I'm exhausted from all the brain-power-draining.

post-eoy plan
+ shop [don't ask me why this tops the list, somehow I just feel like splurging]
+ buy Christian stuff
+ read!!!
+ update my wee-bit outdated diary. [started using the black one <3]
+ basketball, basketball, basketball
+ train my rapidly decreasing stamina
+ write
+ go online
+ chalet + amazing race planning
+ drama night prep
+ netball carn prac
+ CAP portfolio
+ coms studs
+ rs sickening proposal

I'm wearing orange :) tomorrow. Cause dearie vinna is SO excited about the shirt. Dots. [thanks charmaine:) and you better quick tell me what YOU want for your birthday]

Time to MUG.
Till tomorrow!!

S.L.A.C.K.!!!!!!!!!!!!

"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength
they will soar on wings like eagles
they will run and not grow weary
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31.

I wanna say, this is to encourage all those of you who are going through hard times, with exams and whatever.
But no, I'd be such a hypocrite.

I do find strength in the Lord.
But I know the strength's running out. Maybe I'm getting it yet not accepting it, or He's waiting for a better time to give it to me, or I'm still not knocking on His door enough.

I hate this.
I look down at the paper and it all comes to me, one whole rush of "you're useless, you're hopeless, you're a FAILURE."

I guess i AM A FAILURE.

Well then, why study fo eoy's when i'm just gonna be disppointed all again and not enjoy any fruit of my labour?

Give up??

But "I only fail when I give up."
My favourite keychain on my pencil case - stuck faithfully with me for 2 years+ already.

It's what I live by - perseverance.

I don't know anymore, I'm confused and TIRED.

Well anyway God, thank You.
[not sarcastic]

?????????????

it's hopeless.
it's useless.
i hate it all.
i can't ever forget it.
thank you God, it'd be worse without you.

YESTERDAY'S WORHSIP ROCKED.
oh man, it was soooo good. Daniel led, and he sang don't know how many hillsongs. But that isn't the point [hillsongs] anyway. I mean, at least I felt His presence fall upon me unlike the usual simply singing, and trying to feel Him. Yesterday was like, it just came to me. Like fop. SO GOOD. Daniel chooses nice songs:)
every move i make
blessed be Your name
ever-living God
power of Your love
MAJESTY

I LOVE MAJESTY. Plus, he sang the delirious version, not Hillsong, so it included the verse, and it was so nice. Love that song loads.

I think daniel cna lead too:) No "urm"s and "erh"s anymore, hahaha.

*bell rings.* To be continued.

About sunday again. Really different, 2 songs followed by offering, then sermon then activity then 4 songs -2 slow, 2 lively. Songs became more to the back instead of the usual front. I don't know which is better, seems like front, since it's our normal and every church's [prob?] normal style too, and I'm just used to it.

Psalms of lament. I think it's a good theme for the month. Relevant to our lives, at least. And very meaningful.:)
We were asked to write our own laments to God. A POEM!! :))

Every day of my life's part of a sad story
Filled with endless hurt, anxiety and worry
It feels like I'm stuck, unable to get out
Of the chaos and suffering all about
Grades, school and relationships are all there is
I no longer enjoy being in Your midst
The stress falls on me like a heavy blanket
My eyes scan the paper but there's nothing I can get
I know not the direction I am heading
Your footsteps, oh Lord, are fading
You seem so far away as each day goes by
I tell ou "wait a while", but it's a horrible lie
Lord I pray for Your comfort and grace
To take me through the troubles I face
I pray for strength to carry me through
My grief, my sorrow, and all my blues
Be with me, be my guide
Please always be by my side
It's only in You I can confide
Lord help me not have a thing to hide
I pray You'll never forsake me - Your Word holds that true
Thank You so much for Your love
Oh Lord, I thank You.

Wrote it in 10 minutes before rushing onstage to continue worship. Charmaine was like digging into my ribs. Haha. No, nudging. I feel descriptive, lol. It needs polishing:) But I'll leave it at that for now.
Talking about poems/songs, I wonder how our camp song encounter's coming along.

1.45 am. I BETTER GO.
night:)

I've turned nocturnal. I'm taking naps in the afternoon after school, and staying up till about 1+ every day, SCHOOL day. Sounds bad. But I LOVE the peace that you get past midnight.
The serenity and calmness sets in as the clock strikes midnight, like a Cinderella spell being cast by her fairy godmother; this being cast from heaven onto the vast land beneath. Outside, the air is totally still and chilly; you can almost taste the cold on the tip of your tongue. The silent surroundings seemingly hold a mysterious secret that will not be revealed until the light of day. Outside, the air is totally still and chilly; you can almost taste the cold on the tip of your tongue.
Whatever. I give up lah. That's like grade E narrative. Is there such a grade?
In simple english, the peace at this hour is really wonderful and conducive for CHAO MUGGING. I can get inspiration to write poetry/stories here too. I love the peace!

Study group @ nlb tomorrow. More peace, in the day. :)
Study groups never worked for me before. I hope it's not gonn abe a waste of time, cause I don't wanna waste my whole saturday morning!! TIME'S SO PRECIOUS.

Pop-under advertisements. SO LAME CAN. What do they think, they can get our attention just cause it isn't a pop-UP ad? DIAO.

Debbie, where's the macavity thing? Sent?? I was supposed to be doing it, ended up checking mail instead. Anyway, at last the mail's cleared. It was seriously flooded, like 300+ messages thanks to psb!!

I still haven't convinced myself not to compare results with others, cause we all have our own abilities - GOD-GIVEN - and we should learn to be happy -why stress yourself out and get a mental breakdown?
I've had LOTS of mental breakdowns before man.
Yeah, so I think I should be happy no matter what my results are, cause I am trying my best.
And I'm even relaxing at times. Like NOW.

2 weeks of no worship duty. That's very short. Not even considered en exam break. Sometimes at non-exam periods, I get even longer breaks, like 3+ weeks. Are we that short of people? Many gone off for o's. And other stuff. I was looking at last year's rosters, and realised that there were like twice the number of people previously.
What happened??
SO now I'm on like every 2 weeks. but I like it:) So it's ok. Just that I don't get to go down and eat/play bball/talk to everyone/simply be random downstairs.

Homework left: macavity, psl booklet.
Studying left [for the weekend]: hist, chem, tingxie [HOW DUMB.], maths [a bit.]

You alone
You are the peace
That guards my heart
My help in times of need

You are the hope
That leads me on
And brings me to my knees

For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all my heart I'll worship
Aad unto You I'll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
For you along deserve all glory
For you alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day

Trying to fight down my disappointment. I know you may say it's ok, it was good, it was satisfactory, but I don't think it's enough.
And I knew I'd disappointed her. Sorry. I'm equally disapoointed.

Anyway. Worship leading on sunday was not bad I guess. I hope. Hah. Meltee and eve and charmaine and chanyi, thanks for the support!:) In the end I led the 1st 3 songs. That's a lot, hmm. Sacrifice of praise, down at Your feet, You alone. I love You alone. The lyrics are filled with meaning. [up there]
Worship's about Him anyway. Not about pleasing man, not about pleasing myself. I guess I pleased Him. I hope. But there's also the part about ministering to the congregation, to lead them, literally. And that's where I failed.
I hope it'll be better on my next try.

The songs were reeeeeallly nice. The new song "Thank You Lord" by paul baloche and don moen was SUPERB! LOVED IT!! The tune rocks, totally, and the lyrics too. Love the beat. You should hear the cd man. It just makes you tingle:)
And ONE WAY turned out oh-so-great. It was super co-ordinated, the guitar + keyboard + DRUMS!!! Daniel was good:) REALLY REALLY NICE, felt like dancing man. Was really something, compared to normal worship.

BOO the believer music people. They made me re-register for next year. IRRITATING. Next year's reserved for guitar, please. You come disrupt my schedule so horribly. Stupid. Guess I gotta wait. And I'm gonna be so busy next year, don't know how I'll find the time for both guitar and vocals.
How disappointing. I was like really looking forward to it, then WHAM.
Whatever.

Praise night was pretty fun. But at the same time pretty disappointing. Either that or my standards are too high, after sonicfest and fop, but I don't think so. Anyway, others said that the previous was better too.
I think there was not enough balance between lively songs and slow, meditative songs. It was so imbalanced [like the population pyramid. lol.], outta about 15? songs, 3-4 were lively, and the rest were slow, solemn, reflective. Yes, it's good to have both, but why shouldn't there also be upbeat ones to celebrate and praise His name gladly, "with joyful songs"?
You could say that it's simple cause this is the adults leading, so the songs are naturally less lively, as it's their generation kinda worship, but if you really think about it, no, this praise night team is younger than the previous praise night team, yet the last one was more youthful.
I don't know. Daniel said it was really good for him, it showed that "non-Hillsongs could work too". I agree that non-Hillsongs do work too, but disagree that this is one of them.
I'M SORRY, but honestly. I was kinda disappointed. I know I'm being real critical here.
Maybe it's just Methodists. this denomination is conservative in the 1st place.
Anyhow, praise night was nice. I prefer youth worship still:)

Planet shakers conference next year!!!! XD
All plans to go have been made. Haha. No, not exactly. I don't know who I'm going with.
Just know I'm going, definitely.
I love planet shakers:)))))))

Right. 2 weeks to eoy's. I AM UN-RPODUCTIVE. VERY.
Is 3.6 gpa low? IO need a 3.7

I PIERCED MY EARS!!!! YAYYYY. Yeah, I know if you read my last post, you'd know it already. Emphasis. I like the earrings. Training's gonna start4 weeks after I pierced, so I gotta take the studs out. THANKS EVE AGAIN:)
It was much better than I'd expected. Was prepared for worse pain than what it was really. Cause I thought it'd linger for hours. Lol. Sihui said it hurt for a while.
Piercing ears is...interesting.

THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE BIRTHDAY GREETINGS in sms, tag, personally, or any way else. XD
Love you guys. Thank you.

thanks EVE for the ear piercing, earrings and the delicious choc cake on sunday. love em loads, all of em! [i can't wait to change earrings :)]

thanks VINNA for the beautiful bball card, for the effort you took to dig out an orange paper, ,for the great words in the card, for the lotr book you ppl shared.

thanks RO and KY and JOY for the lotr book, and for the messages.

thanks MEI KHUIN for the treat at Liquids - the yummy oreo cheesecake and the choc sundae. and for the encouragement and guidance throughout worhsip on sat and sunday!

thanks DANIEL and AMOS for wishing me on saturday.

thanks to MY MUM for the money to buy Christian books and cd's!

thanks SIHUI [class] for coming with me to pierce ears together, and for the earrings!

thanks FIONA also for taking me with mei khuin to liquids.

thanks ATHENA for being the 1st to wish me on the day itself! -12.02 am:) and thanks for the testimonial as well.

thanks MR ANG, you were the 2nd to wish me. It was really unexpected and nice of you:)

thanks MR ONG also for sending me a message!

thanks CHARMAINE for the testimonial and message, and for the prezzie you're gonna give me. HMM.

thanks OLLY NATA YEN JAMIE SIHUI for sending me birthday messages.

thanks YVONNE for personally wishing me on friday, and for the message. thanks for having been so encouraging and patient as you "mentored" me for worship leading :)

thanks AMADEA and JANE for the balloons and the hugs.

thanks ETHEL for the choc cake!

thanks JOHN for wishing me on friday and for the message.

thanks JEROME for the really funny testimonial.

thanks to EVERYONE ELSE who messaged or tagged or wrote me a testimonial but wasn't mentioned here:)

THANK YOU! XD