11 October 2005
10:14 AM
"But those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength
they will soar on wings like eagles
they will run and not grow weary
they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31.
I wanna say, this is to encourage all those of you who are going through hard times, with exams and whatever.
But no, I'd be such a
hypocrite.
I do find strength in the Lord.
But I know the strength's running out. Maybe I'm getting it yet not accepting it, or He's waiting for a better time to give it to me, or I'm still not knocking on His door enough.
I hate this.
I look down at the paper and it all comes to me, one whole rush of
"you're useless, you're hopeless, you're a FAILURE."
I guess i AM A FAILURE.
Well then, why study fo eoy's when i'm just gonna be disppointed all again and not enjoy any fruit of my labour?
Give up??
But "I only fail when I give up."
My favourite keychain on my pencil case - stuck faithfully with me for 2 years+ already.
It's what I live by - perseverance.
I don't know anymore, I'm confused and TIRED.
Well anyway God, thank You.
[not sarcastic]
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