God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

CNY!
Whee I'm quite high now! (: CNY turned out pretty great. Mostly cause I didn't really go visiting, more like had another type of fun. Ahaha. Friday, a very interesting time in Suntec City! Funny funny things we did in carrefour man. Saturday, homework and nap the whole afternoon, then a VERY EVENTFUL night yes. VERY VERY eventful :D Sunday, CNY service, homework and nap the whole day again! [went with melpoh and mildred for lunch after service, then they came over for a while] Monday, visiting paternal side, CYCLING AT EAST COAST until about 1030pm!!! (: chao fun! Today, mr ang's house then eve's house. We swam(: then had dinner then helped her with some chinese homework [wonder what help I actually gave...]

1125pm. I should be sleeping soon.

I DON'T WANNA GO TO SCHOOL.
I hate school.

It's so easy to hate stuff now. And people too. I never really hated anyone. Except one. And now two.

Aargh. I just lost my highness in a matter of a few minutes.

Whatever. I really dread tomorrow. Really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really really reallyreally really really really really really really really really really really really dread tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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father.
i hate you.
you're one person i'd never love.
i can't find anything good about you, and i'm gonna hate you forever.
i can't forgive you.
i just can't.

guess what. i'm HIGH NOW.
Like, finally.
http://www.gebsp.moe.gov.sg/CAP/Forms/RegistrationForm.aspx?type=secondary
The CAP application form link.

Whee.
I finished my homework! Can't do chinese cause SMART ME didn't bring home my textbook. So I'm stuck unable to do that worksheet and my biji. Bleargh. I'm done with the rest(: Need lotsa help for Graham's law of diffusion!! Dots.

I am getting scared of my own tagboard. It's like some crazy wacky nuts insane machine that's gonna explode pretty soon!! Dearest 104! My goodness man!

I hate my father.
hatehimhstehimhatehimtothecore.

messed up.
IT WAS OK UNTIL THEN.
IT WAS ALWAYS FINE.
IT WAS, IT REALLY WAS.
Consequences, consequences.
Well, too bad. Here's the music. Now go insert your face there. GO. There's no choice.
Thank you for your participation. Do try again next time.

I hope there're such things as 2nd chances. I hope it's enough. I hope. I hope. I hope. I hope I don't mess up again. I hope there're 2nd chances!!!

I don't think 2nd chances are that easily given.

Especially if you messed up REAL BADLY.

WHATEVER.
Wahaha. So weird. When I don’t blog, I don’t blog for like 2 weeks, then when I continue blogging I start to blog like every day. Haha ok, this is just the 2nd day. Can't say so early.

AAAAARGH. I'm back to unhappy mood. Just a while ago I was super high lah.
Crrrraaaaazeeee.

Yikes so much mail to clear. 120 new messages!! It's killing me! I hate flooded inboxes. So tiring to read the stupid mail. Argh.

So. I don't know what else to blog about already.

I wanna go and sleep.
TIRED.

But so much extra stuff to do. Self-given homework. Lol. But they're fun stuff. Just that when you're tired, nothing's fun any more.

I'm not making sense here.
Whatever!

I hate checking mail. I mean, when it's flooded.

I've been writing diary entries in school almost every day recently. Actually, of course recently. This is only the 2nd OFFICIAL week of school for me. My attention span is simply horrible, after abot 10 minutes of a lesson if it fails to interest me, out comes my foolscap and pen and scribbling away I go.

School is so depressing lah. Sigh. x10.

I HATE FLOODED INBOXES.

It's 1020pm. I'm sleepy.

On friday we have to run 4km straight after cny celebratoins. So much for celebrations huh. Hahaha. Nevermind. We can do it!!!! All for the sake of basketball!! :)

Training today was not bad. Started off really really really really bad for me. But later it got better. I was so thankful to God for brightening things up for me, cause like training isn't exactly enjoyable for me normally...and I didn't even ask Him to improve the situation this afternoon, I just gave up and resigned to feeling unhappy the whole time. But He was gracious and provided a way out of my troubles! Was super super thankful man.

S.I.G.H.
Serious Insanity Getting Horribly Horrific.

I don't really like lit now, cause of the teacher. Sheesh man, she just took away my love for the subject. Aah whatever. I'm in no modd to care about anything at the moment...

Just a while ago I thought I had finally returned to my happy hyper state. Yeah. Right, so right. We may have a friendly against HwaChong on wednesday! (: Yayyers. Fun.
Though numberless jerseys AREN'T nice, at all.

You know what?
WHATEVER!

I realise it's just so so so so so so easy to give up...
Yet something tells me I shouldn't, that there's still that teeny weeny bit of hope I should rely on, that I should persist. And with that keychain on my pencil case...well. It's hard to say. I really hate giving up. But it's just so easy... a nice short-cut to end it all. Aaah sigh. Whatever.

Ranting is becoming such a habit...I even do it in class.

Oh by the way, I managed to write to my mortal today, in physics class. Yay(: It's such a long letter. I think it's obvious it's me. I mean hello, the writing style is SO like me. Sigh. Whatever.

Reminds me of the whatever game I played with sarah last year.

AARGH I miss 208! I miss 2005! I miss december! I miss the fun! All the times shared together with my closest friends!

I'm actually still fighting with sarah EVERY DAY now. Not bad right(: Last year every time people saw us fighting they would just sigh and ask,"When will those two stop..." and our immediate automated roply would be "next year". And that made us fight all the more cause we knew this year we wouldn't have the chance. But we still fight hahaha. No, don't get me wrong. I don't enjoy fighting, I'm not sadistic! It's just...some form of memory of 208, get what I mean?

Currently, my extra homework is...
#1. read book
#2. design spiritual journal
#3. worship blog blogskin
#4. plan DG outing(:
#5. read "lord of the flies"

This is begining to sound more like the mugger me. Just that this is the FUN homework(: I really haven't gotten into school mood yet. Not at all. Quite obviously. This year I'm taking very long. Why?

Why is the sky blue? Why is the grass green?

Haha, fellow marshall-ans! Sound familiar eh?? (:

Sheesh. I miss obs too.

I really have a problem with letting go.

Ok, I'm gonna sleep. I was yawning so much this morn. Don't want it to repeat.

Sigh. WHY is it so hard to cheer up?! It was supposed to be normal for me.

I guess I'm not normal any more. Seriously man. Actaully, I never was. But that was the positively insane. This is negatively insane.

S.I.G.H.
Serious Insanity Getting Horribly Horrific.

Last word.
WHATEVER.

update
hello. This is just to let you know that my blog is NOT dead yet. I just lack the time to blog now, that school is starting to make me busier. Sorry. I've got lots to blog about man. OBS, basketball, school, psl sessions, church, dg, MOA :D...blah.
but NO TIME!! Yikes no time!

Anyway, in summary? I still hate school, and I'm still in holiday mood.
And I'm still not happy(:
But I'm smiling.
Told you I'm insane.

Today went to ro's house! A surprise-which-wasn't-very-surprising party(: We swam, and made a mess of her house, ate cake that gave diarrhoea, ate dinner at lot1. Urm.Took LOTS OF photos. Very spasticated ones included(: I may put them on my blog. HAHAHA. Wait and see(:

And church was, as always, fun. It's like the only thing I look forward to every week. And when Sunday's gone it's real depressing. Like NOW. 12.22, monday morn. I want every day to be sunday(: Go to church every day. Haha. Ok a bit extreme. Well, at least it beats school and studying and homework.

My dg mortal is SO HARD to write to!! Yikes. I need help. Could I like swop or sth man. Sheesh.

I finished my cw essay(: Crossing the boundar. Think my story's really cliche. And boring. Lacks interesting content or lang. Aah whatever. I tried. [and fail...again...as always...]

I got a romantic date with fiona(: On dunno what daym going dunno where. HAHA, so much for good planning. Lalala. Who cares. Go out, simply. Haha. Take it easy man(: I sound like amos.

I'm talking to myself!!!! Insanity!!

Hey fiona, see, I blogged. And I blogged about you. Happy now? Haha. :D

I'm looking forward to SOUL training. I think it's good. And we should have it to develop our talents, or we'll not be serving Him to the FULLEST we can.

I should go sleep now.

I seriously need to get out of this holiday mood. It's the 4th week of school!!! And I'm still treating it like december! Or WISHING it was december actually.

And I still miss church camp!! Crazy or what!
Ahaha. For the millionth time, I'm really becoming insane.

Yayy, now when you click "entries" the first thing you see won't be "emotionally drained." Wahaha.

Goodnight.

I should stop talking to myself. This sounds like one of my previous entries...
Yikes. reminding myself of holidays again.

Ok goodnight.

emotionally drained
A very low and lousy past week. Ever since school started. It's been like so horrible every day.

And I'm behind that facade, once again.

I really hate it lah!!! Sigh. There hasn't been a single day I found myself truly happy, enjoying myself, having fun. Every smile was really a mask. Every laugh was really a cry. Every jump for joy was forced.

I haven't been happy for a very long time I realise. 1 week. ONE WEEK! Not being happy for one week is seriously very very bad. Wonder how I even survived. Ok, I didn't. Burst in the end. And burst really bad. You don't wanna know. Even sarah sensed my unhappiness! I myself didn't realise it was so obvious.

Thought I was good at hiding behind that facade. Thought people didn't know, didn't see, didn't realise. Thought...thought a lot.

Aargh. I don't know how I'm supposed to survive school if I'm like that all the time. Tomorrow I'm going to OBS. And my unhappy mood hasn't changed since it began. It's really gonna affect my OBS experience, which is quite sad. Cause OBS should be like, WHOA, SUPERB. But at the rate I'm going with all my unhappiness and lack of cheer, it's gonna be unenjoyable.

SHEESH LAH I can't cheer up!!!

What am I supposed to do?

They say that for people who are usually super happy and high and hyper and never get upset or sad or pissed easily, when they DO become low and sad and depressed, it's like BOMB. Super bad. Could there be better evidence than this!

SIGH!




the tears that fall...
[credits to vinna who loves using that phrase?! lol.]

day 2...not so good. not so bad either.
In actual fact it wasn't bad. Just that these few days I haven't been really happy so nothing's good to me. Sigh.

You know what?
I hate school.
I hate 2006.
Why'd you have to come so fast. Told you you're not welcome.

Sigh.

And I was supposed to blog about the hilarious sec ones today. But I'm not in the mood to . So my entry will turn out unhappy instead if happy, which it should be.

Anyway, what I can say is, I LOVE 104!!! They're seriously one bunch of ULTRA ENTHU AND FUN girls. Man, they rock.

Aargh I give up. Can't blog now.

1st day of school
One word. BLEARGH. Aargh. I don't know so many people from my class. The worst thing is, I STILL WANNA CHANGE MY COMBI. I'm just committing suicide with chem, bio, geog and lit!!! Aargh argh aaargh. Sigh. 2 years or suffering. And this is just the beginning...gee, lots of luck to me!

But today was actually not bad, as in the day. Had lots of fun with the sec ones for orientation!! And AARGH guess what! They're calling me LOONY. Like, geez. My reputation for craziness is seriously soaring. Well, that reminds me that I have to put up the latest version of the MOA theme song xD xD and the new MOA statement made up by pearly, peggy and me! :) But that's later. We had raffles initiation [haha RI I <3 confusing people with that. Like, "we're going RI!!!" "HUH?!!! WHAT?!" hahaha.], then school tour, then psl sessions then RI again. Tiring though. I really <3 104!!! YEAH!! They're a bunch of enthu + participative + FUN!!! kiddos. Yayy man. PSL session with them was pretty good. And they laugh a lot. Ok, maybe that's simply cause I was, as always, acting like a fool. And I do mean fool :P But I really love then. They're a nice FUN!! bunch of people yayy :))

And during the short hour I spent with my OWN class, we were doing some "choose a movie character or automobile or vegetable to represent yourself and explain why" in small groups. And then our form teacher came to me and asked me for mine. And I was like ERR. I always don't know what to say for such things. And she said that's cause I like being MYSELF. And she asked, so what is it you love about yourself? I WAS LIKE WHAT THE. So ego lah please!! And then finally I said "I'm crazy" when she changed her question to "describe yourself". And she started rambling on about "you shouldn't think you're crazy/an idiot, cause you then start projecting an image to everyone around you that you're crazy. Thoughts are POWERFUL. They make people think the same way..."

Urm. Well. isn't that true?! I AM crazy and I DO act crazy and people DO think I'm crazy. And I thought that was GOOD. HUH?!

HAhahahahahahahahaha. I don't know man.

So anyway. I hope I can get to know my classmates better. We've got 8 PRC SCHOLARS. EIGHT. Yikes. But actually, I talked to a few of them this morning and they're quite cute and nice:) Hahaha. Quite fun to talk to them. Their accent is cute. Lol.

OK!! NOW FOR MOA!!! Yayy. Man, that is so much more fun to blog about than school...

I've got about 40 new lines. Is that shiok or shiok xD I shall type out the whole song, for people to copy easily. And to revise. And to make sure every MOA member knows EVERY LINE!! Hahaha! Fun and funny! :) [charmaine, sound familiar??]

let's go swimming
goldfish styling
little green frog
looks like bulldog
very blue sky
where birds fly high
sing'pore poly
super holy!
we love MOA song
ding dong ding dong
look at red car
it's so bizzare
we drive taxi
surely mati
red traffic light
shining so bright
followed by green
i smell chlorine
we wanna eatbanana split!
take MRT
don't take ferry!
that chicken rice
tastes really nice
publish this post
then go and boast
take duck and roast
or make some toast!
hot pink's ugly
go and party
jump in the pool
look like a fool
then i will drool
because its cool
never reply
you go and die
let's kick some butt
contribute fart
let's somersault
over the vault
the world needs hugs
unlike the bugs
let's kiss and tell
and ring the bells
lubricant fiona
always goes "huh"
lsoer peggy
eats spaghetti
peraly the loo
nothing to do
lunatic cheryl
jumps in barrel
luminous dawn
smells like a prawn
oh my goodness
that's such a curse
i hate homework
makes me go berserk
we're not lazy
we're just crazy
powder is good
changes the mood
flower power
take a shower
strawb'ry shortcake
is hard to bake
what do we do
i wonder too
see you later
alligator
just in a while
ms crocodile
see you sometime
mr sunshine
yes, i will soon
bye, mr moon!

Whew! That was super tiring. HAHAHA, all MOA mebers! Have fun memorising the lines! it is a must!! Hahaha! xD

And CHARMAINE, I'M GONNA KILL YOU. You typed my tongue twister WRONGLY!!!!!AAAAARGH YOU!

For the don't know what time, shermaine's school shoe shop sells socks, shirts, shoes and shorts. Ok? OK?

And our MOA statement.
Loo can be loser, lunatic, the loo, lubricant, luminous, loony, looney tunes, louise or LUCAS!!!!!!!!!!!
Peggy is the loser, I'm the lunatic, pearly is the loo, fiona's the lubricant, dawn's luminous, and the other places are empty!! So feel free to volunteer yourself as either loony, looney tunes or louise! Lucas, no one can compare to him lah, so don't try hahahaha.

The com is laggin. And it's 10pm. I'm gonna sleep now. HAHAHA. That doesn't sound like me right?! Well I do sleep early on school days ok! :)

Looking forward to the 2nd day of school. We have about 362 days to the end of this year. Got that from kell. Bleargh. Bah. Gee. Well, I'm gonna have lots of fun! Yes, lots!

3rd post in the same day
Ahahaha. Wheee I'm high now. As I was always.
I love this new layout!!! It's like, perfect for my siao, crazy, mad, retarded, spastic insanity. Hahahahahaha.

Credits to JANE for helping me with the tagboard alignment. :)

I really love the new layout. SOO COOOL! HAHAHAHA!

Ok. I'm just high that's all. Ignore me:)

Where are YOU on my mood-o-meter? CRAZY??? THEN JOIN MOA!!! HAHAHAHA!

Okie dokie. 45 minutes to church. YES! So fun. Whee. New dg. NOT FUN. NOT FUN AT ALL.
BLEARGH.

cont'd
Jane is violently protesting against my decision to blog even more. HAHAHA. But I'm still gonna blog:)

Jane says she's gonna kill me. HAHAHA. And she just suffocated me.

Aaargh. I can't blog with people around me continuously pestering me to get off. I shall wait till I get the peace and quiet at home to blog properly:)

I owe eve the 5 quirks thingy. And I need to blog about...new year's eve. And how I passed my very sad last few days of the 2005 holidays.

SHEESH lah I'm now sec3. hate that thought. I really really dread school?!! AAARGH!!

Yesterday afternoon [meaning new year's eve], I woke up super super super late, irritatingly, and went to church for worship prac. Came home, called fiona, made charmaine's christmas present, bathed, had dinner, went to church for watchnight service, and now I'm here at charmaine's house for stayover.

I had cheese prata and shared tissue prata with everyone and milo godzilla for supper. And they all feared I was gonna get super duper high later cause of the sugar-rush. HAHAHA. But actually, I'm not very high now. You should have seen me at the coffee shop. WOH. I was scary:)

5 quirks. HAhahaha. [eve are you happy now?? :) haha. and ethel, you can finally go do yours too!]

1. I am one who can NEVER be late for something. I start to fret like crazy and worry a whole lot and complain a whole lot. You should never be with me when I'm gonna be late for something. Ask eve - she had quite a bad experience that day at CCAB :) Heh.

2. I peel my toenails!!! GROSS right! HAHHAHA. :) And you know what! I actually peel off those water bubble thingys, and even those that have dried up. AND. I PRESERVE AND KEEP THEM in a small little plastic bag! Ro can testify for this. Hahaha she has seen it:) And boy, was she grossed out or grossed out. HAHA are you grossed out? :P

3. I actually squeeze toothpaste out from the bottom of the tube. hahha.

4. I think sleeping is a waste of time. Yes, I've mentioned this lots of times in previous entries already but really, it's a quirk right? :) Haha.

5. I dare to look make a fool of myself in public. HAHAHA. I dare to put stupid stuff on my blog. Like the 2nd quirk of mine.

MOA songs---cont'd

Oh, firstly I shall start with this:
CALLING FOR MOA RECRUITS!!!
JOIN MOA NOW!
It is absolutely free of charge. Simply approach pearly or me. We will be more than glad to welcome you into the Ministry of Attraction [WOOHOOHOO!! :)] As long as you fulfill these criteria[they are certainly NOT hard to fulfill!!! hahaha!]

*HYPER
*HIGH ALL THE TIME
*most importantly, DARE TO ACT LIKE A FOOL IN PUBLIC! :)

Current MOA members:
president: me! xD
vice president: pearly
secretary: fiona
treasurer: charmaine
members: david, jeremy, jane, amos, steph

Editing the tongue twister...
Shermaine school shoe shop sells socks, shirts, shoes and socks!!!!
ahahahahaa!! [that's not part of the tongue twister by the way.]

credits to shermaine for letting me use her name

new lines to theme song!!!!!!!!!!

jump in the pool
look like a fool
then i will drool
because its cool
never reply
you go and die

Credits to CHARMAINE whose condo pool gave me inspiration to think of the new lines. And credits to her for thinking of some lines (NOTE: this is only because she's sitting beside me now and I am obliged to thank her for her contributions...BLEARGH HER.)

credits also to david[jeremy's friend] who seriously RANDOMLY thought of the last 2 lines, and I realised they rhymed and suited MOA perfectly. Yup, we've got a new recruit. xD

Oh man. There were new lines. But I just forgot them. Ahaha well.

I'm at charmaine's house now. And my typing is currently horrible. Her keyboard is weird. Ahahaha.

It's quite boring, everyone's not awake now. Not online, at least. So I presume they are either partying [I hope, for their sake:P] or sleeeeeping piggies. Haha.

hello.. jAne* decided to type some crap here.. cause i dont blog.. and i'm like super bored! cause no one is entertaining me.. humph......!! evil people.. especially the hosts.. ask us come for sleepover then everyone doing their own stuff..so boring... sheeshhhhh...!!!!!!!!

I will go blog in another entry. This is supposedly specially for MOA only. hahaha.