God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

rs - in school
Hello!!!! I AM HIGH NOW!! HAHa. You know what vinna said? "You should take the 'I went hyper again!!!' at the end of the posts out! Most of your posts now are either depressed, sad, or inspirational [and thoughtful]."

Haha.

OK rs is over. Heh. I was talking to vinna instead of blogging actually.

I don't know whether to be afraid of tonight. Honestly, IAM scared.

counting my blessings.
Recently lots of things have made ma ponder and wonder and think and reflect upon my life and everything as a whole. And I learnt a lot.
Like.

Today during geog we were learning urban problems...the effects of rural-urban migration, problems, etc.
And there was a video on mexico city and then a new article on people who lived UNDER roads, with houses that were about 1.5m high or so only. Meaning they couldn't even STAND in their houses. They probably crawled around... And when we were talking about development the past few lessons, I realise that I am indeed VERY VERY lucky to be born in such a safe, secure, rather high-tech, advanced, modern society of Singapore. Every day I have food laid on my table, water is aplenty, toilets are flushable, crime rate is pretty low, I have clothes to CHOOSE from, a computer to entertain myself/study with, EDUCATION, both parents, awesome friends..
In about 1/2 the other countries of the world, people are poverty-stricken, sick, suffering, dying, crying, helpless and living every day in fear of death, war, pain, hunger, thirst... for them, even a bread crumb is hard to find. Miles must be travelled on foot to get a few drops of water...and it's not even guaranteed they'll get them. They yearn for education, yet they'll probably never get it. And here we are, complaining every day that we have to go to school, whining that we've got homework
HELLO! [that was yenlin who barged into the classroom with a sudden "yo!" haha:) anti-climax man.]
As I was saying, here we are, wishing we didn't have to study and mug and complete piles of homework, while not very far away, children are LONGING for education. They need it. They want it. But they never get it. And I actually am blessed with so many varieties of food and drinks and clothes and material possesssions. I can PICK what to eat for recess. I can enjoy a full meal at pizza hut or burger king or kfc or even at a little food court.

And most importantly, I'm BLESSED TO BE A CHRISTIAN, TO HAVE A HEAVENLY FATHER up there. Who is omni-potent, almighty, sovereign, and loves me everlastingly. So much that He bore the immense pain on the cross. What would I be without the Lord?!
Lost.
And life would be meaningless.

I am really extremely tremendously lucky.

And I think if I were to literally count my blessings, I'd never finish the list. Seriously. When you really think about it, there're so many things to be happy about, and to be thankful for! But human nature makes us simply focus on the depressing, painful difficulties that we face, while we never ever realise the blessings that we actually enjoy.

So maybe I should count my blessings. I shall start now and wonder when I'll ever end it.

Oh but before that, I have a disclaimer: All these "info" are not supposed to make any of you readers feel unhappy, jealous, guilty, unlucky, or whatever. I am not trying to rub anything in if anything stated here offences you. And I apologise if anything does. But what I mean is, this is only supposed to make you feel HAPPY about what you actually have, and be thankful that you are so blessed. Really, go think about it.

Most importantly, there're many things that you may be unhappy about, wbut try turning it around. you may really fnid some happiness out of it. Be OPTIMISTIC :D

"You can't choose how circumstances act upon you, but you can always choose how you act upon circumstances."

"Feelings are choices. And ultimately, YOU choose your feelings!!"

From a very inspirational OBS instructor, "misery is an option."

1. I'm still alive, to this very moment, this very hour, this very day. I'm alive enough to sit here and ponder over how blessed I am!
2. I HAVE GOD IN MY LIFE! That's more than I could ask for. I don't even deserve to be God's child! I don't deserve to be saved!!!
3. I can go to church freely, with no worries whatsoever that the next moment I will be sweeped away to be beheaded or jailed or something of the sort.
4. I'm not an orphan.
5. I am fully healthy and "normal".
6. I have education. I don't need to work 16 hours on the farm like those children in Mexico.
7. I have FRIENDS!!!
8. I have a big house [well, quite. Compare it to a 1.5m-high house and you'll realise.]
9. I have a comfortable bed to sink into every night.
10. Singapore is not going through any serious epidemic or war currently.
11. I may not have gotten into the basketball team, but at leastI made it to the top 15.
12. I may not come from a very well-to-do family, but at least we have a roof over our heads, and our daily expenses are covered.

And that's all, though there's a whole lot more waiting to be listed. These are the ones I can think of now.

I hope I'll be selected to go for the OSL in India or wherever. And I wanna got for our church mission trip too!! :D

Make a difference in someone's life; bring a smile upon someone's face; cheer up the heart of someone who's suffering.

Count your blessings. Realise how fortunate you are.
And thank God for being so faithful to you.

Smile!! :)

free throws
I don't know how I should put it. I shall just quote exactly what I said to joelynn just now.
The saddest thing is to draw a foul and then go up there and miss both shots.

AARGH.

Drew the most, missed the most.

I mean, it's as good as POINTLESS if you don't follow up perfectly right??!!!!

HELLO, it's a FREE THROW. Meaning NO ONE IS DEFENDING you and the basket is THERE RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU.
WHAT EXCUSE IS THERE TO MISS IT!

And what I can't understand is why during warm-up I managed to only miss 2 out of the 8 or so we shot. And in the match I didn't even score 2. PLEASE. Missing 6 out of 7 is unforgivable. Totally horrible.

Feels great to draw a foul. Feels rock-bottom lousy and pathetic to miss the shots.


So many chances, so many mess-ups.

Still not there yet.

psb website
http://www.rgs.edu.sg/student/psl/

nougats are addictive!!!I ate 8 nougats yesterday. 6 crunchy and 2 soft. Oh man. Talk about gaining weight. Ahahaha. And diabetes too!! I just ate and ate and ate and couldn't stop. So delicious. And on top of that, a full meal dinner. I ate the nougats before and after. Good or what. I have a crazy appetite.

I'm in school. And YES!!! Inet is finally working for me!!!!!!!!!! Woohoohoohoooo!!!!! :):):):):):):)Yeeha. Finally. I'm not like outdated on the stuff whenever my chem/physics teacher goes, "For fuirther details, please check the inet..." or "Answers are on the inet, please go check it yourself."
I don't like being uninformed:)

Aargh, Huge pile of homework today. I better get going soon.

Twas tiring today!! Lit essay early in the morning [what a wondeful way to start the day. What anice rhyme.] Then social studies, super slack though most of us spent it completing our lit essays. recess. MATHS which killed our brains. And straight after that, an yi lun wen. Like SHEESH man. Our brains were really dying by then. After that it was pretty ok. But still had lunch and 2 lessons... geog was fun as usual(:
BUT THE HOMEWORK. We got homework for [practically EVERY lesson today. And it was a long day. I hate such things.

The school com's keyboards are all so nice to type on!!! Ahaha. I miss comstudies. At least it enabled me to regularly update my blog last year and the year before. Ahahaa. But I do come online more often now due to psl and convention and all the email stuff. And most online homework too. It's quite bad, they expect everyone to have easy access to the internet. HAh. Yeah right. Some people don't get it that easily...

420pm. Oh YES!!! I finally managed to meet Mr Shum. For reception thingies. Wheew. So difficult to find him. Some busy man he is ahaha. Yay, that's settled for now so I just gotta tell anzie.

I wonder what to write for the overseas service learning form. Maybe we're gonna do that wheelchair basketball thing. Yayy, that'd be wuite fun too, though not as meaningful as the India trip. But oh well, there's always mission trip:))

17 feb 1230-230pm. post mortem for orientation.
5 april 230-530pm. training by mrs ronatan.

OOH yes. I have to copy down that poem for vday.
I think I flunked my lit essay.

Jteo just came into the room:
"Hi cheryl. *that smile he always has on his face* Still not going back yet? .. Ok. Enjoy yourself."

Ahaha. WEIRD or what?!!

Ok. maybe he's a nice teacher. Why couldn't I stand him in the 1st place?? Ahaha. I guess he's not poser after all. He wrote a weird nice note to alina too. Hahaha. Funny man.

Oh and how'd he know my name?!! Scaaary.

I've been having the all-star song stuck in my head since yest. Cause of the DANCE(: Ahaha. Glad and not glad it's the same. Cause I can't make it for pracs so I guess I'm lucky to know it already or I DIE. SLI is next friday!!!
[yes! long weekend!]

V day is coming!! Ahahaha.

Better get going indeed. HOMEWORK!!!

Bye!! :)

don't know
Title-less then.

I forgot all that I wanted to blog about. I was planning it when I went to the toilet after QT. Ahahaa. Yes I'm weirdddd.

QT has been great so far. Committing more now than last time(: Somehow I feel like I've got less homework and all that so I can prolong my QT. Haha. Weekend QT's always rock. At least I get something more out of it. Haha. Am I making sense? Nevermind. Random ranting mood now.

But basically what I've been learning recently, in both QT and DG and from experiences, is that it's REALLY hard to follow God's ways, like having to put up with peer pressure, and it can get frustrating trying to be a good child of God, BUT the rewards one gets from doing so are so much greater than all the discrimination, taunting, mocking, laughing, one has to deal with! It's WORTH IT!! :D Nothing can beat being His child(:

Lalala. I'm pretty high now.

Training was ok. Mr ang was in an extremely bad mood. And no one could figure out why. We did the same cangying thing for 2 hours without any break. Goodness. We were like dehydrating and dying. Well. At least I didn't really mess up anything today.

I HATE FLOODED INBOXES. I currently have about 90 messages to read. Gosh. Pissifying. I pity my inbox. Gaahh.

Wow. I get to come home STRAIGHT AFTER SCHOOL tomorrow!! That seriously rocks. I feel so free this year, it's like I'm missing out on something but I just can't find that thing. It really feels so weird to be free.

1230am! Gosh! Night.

today's training
Was bad.
Very bad.
It's so easy to give up!
But something's just stopping me from doing so.
I don't want it to end here. Never.
I guess potential is present.
I HOPE.
I'm confused.
And frustrated.
And I really wish to give up.

Anyway. I realise I really like my poem(: Ahahaha. I spent the whole afternoon yesterday on it. Stoning, writing, sleeping. Then only did homework at night. I was in NO MOOOD AT ALL yest. Something wrong with me.

I got into CAP cluster!!!! Yayyyyy(: So did vinna and nata and alina and practically everyone, lol. Now is to wait for the results for those who got into thr seminar thingy at NUS. Haha, cool man. I wanna research on
CHRISTIAN VALUES IN CHRONICLES OF NARNIA/LORD OF THE RINGS.

And I wanna go for the overseas SL trip!!! It's so meaningful and really makes SL something you do from your heart, not to complete the stupid CIP hours...

Make a difference in someone's life.

You make a living by what you get. You make a life by what you give.
-Winston Churchill.

I was really inspired by the video(:

I wanna be part of it!!!
Haha.

WEEKENDS WOOHOOHOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!
I think my change in mood is so super significant and obvious.
OH even mr ong noticed the change in me. It's pretty freaky, how certain people can see through you like that... he was asking me the other day if "everything was ok".
And some sec1s also said that I'm not my usual high self unlike during orientation. But then again...like I said, high-ness isn't always real huh. Aah well. It's up to you to figure out.
HAHA.
I shant comment.

So much homework, piss me off!! :(

Going for rock for good tomorrow evening. Hope it's worth the $.

I feel guilty. I'm not doing homework.
Somehow this year I have totally no care about my studies. Like, I have this sickening feeling my GPA is gonna be like 3.4 but somehow I just don't feel like doing anything to prevent that from happening. Like, I REALLY DON'T CARE ANY MORE.

Well. Anyway I'm just feeling so so so so SO fortunate to be a child of God. I really have no idea what I'll do without Him.Yes, this is all cliche and boring but I guess when you do experience it, you can't help but say it! He has been my constant source of strength and comfort and refuge and happiness through every hard and depressing day. No one compares to Him, and nothing compares to His magnificent, SACRIFICIAL LOVE. I mean seriously, if He actually gave us the greatest gift of all - life, what can He not give?! [there's a verse for that but I can't remember it off hand like that]. He's really so awesome and mighty and wonderful. There is no one else I can turn to, no one else can grant me the same peace and comfort and hope. I pity the non-Christians who are all living in a lost world out there, with no salvation...no hope...no eternal peace...and the worst thing is, they don't even realise they're lost without the Lord. It's so sad.
I'm GLAD, super super glad to be a Christian! :) Praise the Lord in the highest!

I haven't received any sms in 3 days!!! Feel so unwnted:( Ahaha. Nevermind, it's good cause it means I have nothing to which I need to reply! Can save my limited free messaged. Pathetic man, the no I get! Ahaha, but it's better than nothing(:

Chose this poem for the valentine's day thingy for Lit:

The World’s Most Beautiful
I’d give anything to see the sun set on the horizon,
I’d do anything to gaze at a full moon in the night sky;
Even a rainbow would make me smile,
And I’d love to swim in crystal clear waters
Of an untouched sea;
Sometimes I’ll see a shooting star,
And try to gaze from afar,
All the diamonds in the night sky;
The mist on the mountains is breathtaking,
As is walking in rainforest;
To see cascading waterfalls
I’d do anything for,
As to stand on the highest peak in the world,
And look at the sights below;
I’d love to soar on wings above the clouds,
Across the bluest skies;
I’d do anything to see
All the beautiful things in the world,
Like a red rose blooming in the Sahara,
Like a river twisting through a dusty land,
All the beautiful things in the world;

But I also know I am looking at
The world’s most beautiful creation,
Every time you smile,
And every time I look into your eyes.

-Muhammad Edwan Shaharir

Quite nice eh? Lazy to really go looking for something I LOVE. I mean, this is just homework...

Yawn. Eyes hurting. Night.

Not part of it
I wanna be one of the chosen twelve,
Not just a useless book chucked away on the shelf.
I wanna feel the adrenaline,
Not just sit at the sidelines, watching, writing.
I wanna be running on the court,
Not just join the crowd as another dot.
I wanna get the feel of the ball in my hands,
Not just be numbed by ice and drink cans.
I wanna be wearing my black and white jersey,
Not just stare at the classroom clock, wishing to leave early.
I wanna smile and shake hands at the end,
Not just walk away holding the tripod stand.

No, I don't wanna keep the score,
Nor walk around in a pinafore.
I don't wanna be their errands man,
Nor walk back and forth, videocam in hand.
I don't wanna record statistics,
Circling the misses, crossing the hits.
I don't wanna be a worthless spare tyre,
A lousy worker whom none wants to hire.
I don't wanna be a pathetic misfit,
I wanna be part of it.

-6pm, 2Feb06.