keeping it simple

07 May 2006

2:40 PM

Another night of staying up. Slept at 230 woke up at 5. Ahaha. Fun(: Feel accomplished once again.

I still don't have motivation to study..I mean, if I did, what would I be doing here right?!

I should count the number of hours I've slacked and put it in a ratio to the time I spent studying. hmm. Then it'll be enough proof. Maybe I sound like I've studied a lot, but that's just cause I sacrificed sleep to do so.

Studies aren't everything.

Finally, I agree with that. I've found so much more meaning in life than just wasting my days away studying. So many more stuff to do that are more important and meaningful.

I don't understand why I think so much. There're many things around me now that are actually so simple and normal, but somehow they provoke thoughts in me. And I can spend hours pondering over it. Like. I actually came up with an analogy using pillows, the snack. I shall wait till it's nicely crafted before writing it here. If I even write it here.

never in my darkest days do You walk away
never do You turn from me when I pray
never do You leave nor forsake me
and when I let go You set me free

so i rejoice for You, Lord, are faithful
Your love never fails, Your power never ceases
I know You'll be my ever-present source of comfort
when You seem far, in truth You're there
just testing and waiting for me to call upon You
just building the friendship between us
cause You love me
never does Your love end.

Interesting that last night before the call dawn and I were doing the exact same thing - listing down our faults/weaknesses and planning which one we want to improve on.

I think being 15 is really really weird. I know I've changed a lot since last year. I guess only very close friends of mine will know what I mean. Hmm well. You can tell by my blog and all anyway I suppose. I think if you know how much I've changed, you'll find it scary. Cause I find it exremely scary. But what I know is that I definitely do not like my new self. Not totally, at least.
Emotions are a scary topic.

stir it up in our hearts Lord

I can't blog.