God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

stop lying to yourself.

Oh nevermind. It'll just come out angsty. Yuck. Forget it.

new email!
silent.speak@yahoo.com
i'll be using it for msn too:)

night.

2:09 am
What a weird title. Haha. Who cares :)

I am a happy person!!
(who am i kidding?!)
Well. But I'm happy for now! :) You should see me grinning away here...quite scary actually. I'm the only one here and smiling to myself. HAHAHA. Oh no! What's happening to me!!

I realise I say I'm nuts very often. Hoho. Maybe it's true.

Many of my friends use "hurhur". I think it's such a very weird phrase!! Who laughs like that?! WEIRD!

Just got off the phone with fiona. Was an accountability partner call actually. I totally forgot about our change in call timing:P But really! I didn't know it was confirmed? Heh I'm real sorry dawn! Whee talked with dawn for a bit longer than an hour than fiona had to come interrupt when we were PRAYING?! Tsktsk. So rude. Haha. Then talked for another hour or so then she went to sleep. Ha. It's true our convos are so crappy. I wonder how often we talk about substantial stuff. Haha!

Dawn says that I can really blog. What does "really" mean? Haha. I know. I'm just asking as a form of rhetorical. My long posts are so long they shock me sometimes. Haha.

WOOHOO people love the MOA song! Wahaha. That's great! :) See, we reeeaaally attract attention man:) Yay plee, we are still going strong! Haha. Hopefully.

I like the weather now. It's slight drizzle and the sound of the light rain in the background is like music - tingling away in my head. Calls to mind the phrase - "like music to the ears". How apt! And I love that feeling of standing at the window and enjoying that cool breeze sweep past your face, leaving this refreshing sense, that cool and crisp air. Even more so if you go outside and experience it in the open! :) (so many smileys in this post. I AM a happy person!)
Pretty pretty. HAHA. So funny.

I'm thirsty. And I'm yawning. No no!! Not good! I must stay up to read Lord of the Flies! It's pretty boring...I never enjoyed reading literary texts. Wonder why I take lit. And it's supposed to be my favourite or best subject since I'm more of the arts and writing person. But I seriously cannot analyse texts. No. Or at least, I'm ok with analysing, but not expressing in essays. Find it hard to say what I mean. Weird, huh? And I write poems. RIGHTT...

dance is a nice word. Haha. I didn't capitalise it cause Dance doesn't look as nice. I like the word "dance" on the dance CCA t-shirt from our school. They used the font name that starts with v. (NOT verdana.) Heh, I forgot what it is. Don't have it.

It's stopped raining!! Oh no! Sad! And I need to go off soon. And unlike fiona, my "soon" means soon, and not NOW. So I may type a few more words and go. Haha.

A few more words and go. Haha.

HAHA!! Get it get it? Aww man I'm getting crappy. Ooh what's new. I AM crappy, not getting crappy. Hahaha!!

Chao!

hoop hope
2 scratches on my face, a pizza wounded elbow and a wound on the other elbow.
PLUS lots of takeaways:)
i'm glad i went for 3 on 3 and didn't give up. and i'm glad for the last match we played.
thank God:)

no point letting your sprits get dampened. it's just gonna make you play worse. look how much you contributed in those 3 matches when you were pissed and frustrated. ZERO. so just RISE and move on.



every match is an opportunity to learn and to grow.

give up.
wait. don't.

not worth 2 minutes.
no drop of sweat. and 6 yellow spots from pus.
invisible, huh?

WE WON COMBINED SCHOOL :D we make history man.
GREAT JOB AUTO-FOCUS! that's the way uh huh uh huh we like it uh huh uh huh!



but it's hard to be so happy and celebrate with all of you when there's nothing for me to celebrate about?
we win as a team.
i wish.
i hate the number 2 from now on. yah yah it's better than 0. but what good did 2 do.
i'm SORRY.
i should shut up.
goodnight, world.

MOA SONG!!! XDDDD
let's go swimming
goldfish styling
little green frog
looks like bulldog
very blue sky
where birds fly high
sing'pore poly
super holy!
we love MOA song
ding dong ding dong
look at red car
it's so bizzare
we drive taxi
surely mati
red traffic light
shining so bright
followed by green
i smell chlorine
we wanna ea
tbanana split!
take MRT
don't take ferry!
that chicken rice
tastes really nice
publish this post
then go and boast
take duck and roast
or make some toast!
hot pink's ugly
go and party
jump in the pool
look like a fool
then i will drool
because its cool
never reply
you go and die
let's kick some butt
contribute fart
let's somersault
over the vault
the world needs hugs
unlike the bugs
let's kiss and tell
and ring the bells
lubricant fiona
always goes "huh"
loser peggy
eats spaghetti
pearly the loo
nothing to do
lunatic cheryl
jumps in barrel
luminous dawn
smells like a prawn
looney tunes girl
andrea can curl
oh my goodness
that's such a curse
i hate homework
makes me go berserk
we're not lazy
we're just crazy
powder is good
changes the mood
flower power
take a shower
strawb'ry shortcake
is hard to bake
what do we do
i wonder too
see you later
alligator
just in a while
ms crocodile
see you sometime
mr sunshineyes,
i will soon
bye, mr moon!

There's our MOA song for you! It's been a long time yah? :)

getting down to blogging PROPERLY :) -about a lot of things.
Just saw the photos of the MUSIC TEAM OUTING :D Yeah man, it was really a day to remember. Didn't think we could plan it so well (yeah I really should say it was a great job:P) within such a short period of like 2 days?! Haha. Just 1 meeting with yvonne on wednesday and preparation on thursday. And bought a little food for the sandwich on saturday itself. Knowing I'm not a last-minute worker. Haha.
MANY THANKS TO YVONNE AND JEREMY!! Loved planning it with you guys! Woohoo! Fun fun. See another side of the music team members. Ha. We are NOT all-serious people. And we don't just play music all the time. Haha. Ok I don't think that's the impression anyone ever had of us but AAH whatever! Haha.
I don't photo-blog, but if you wanna see the photos go to yvonne's blog!! Heh. I shall do some publicising now. For more information and details, please do not hesitate to click on this link and scroll your way through the rather HILARIOUS AND AMUSING snapshots of WOW music team members going WILD! :) And not forgetting to mention that the catchy captions will guide you along the way, so no worries! Have an enjoyable time laughing till your sides hurt! :)http://yvonong.blogspot.com/2006_06_01_yvonong_archive.html
I do thank God for making the event such a success. Yeah we were tired and all...but you have to admit yuou HAD FUN right?! (haha. or you watch out. nah just kidding.) More and more people turned up ove th last few days. the turn-up wasn't that bad in the end...I think. But oh man. The music team is gonna get REAL BIG real soon. There're so many new members on the list! WOOHOO! Yes yes thank God :D

And DANIEL'S PARTY!!! OH MAN! That was serious craziness, from start to end. Hahahahahaha. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY DANIEL:) FUNKAYY doc! Figured that'd work since I wasn't around to post a happy birthday yesterday? (for obvious reasons.) Haha. Please don't ask me what happened. HAHAHA. Oh nevermind. I broke my clean record! Aww man! How early! No actually not, just earlier than I intended. But it was so mild. Cheh. More would have been good:) But no. Haha. [WALKING AROUND! :P] Twas really really really really REALLY funny. Get jared to let you listen to the voice recording :P Oh but you may not get the jokes. You know that kinda have to be there at the exact moment to capture the essence of the umm, hiliarity? LOL, you get what I mean! HAha. And poor daniel got dunked 3 times!! HAHAHA! But that's what you get for holding a POOL PARTY, don't you?! Well ayemoss went in with him. Haha. Twice or thrice too.

The whole of June holidays has been really hectic for me. Want a full report of my schedule from day 1, I'll give it to you. Nuts. I can't find any day that I was home 24 hours. Seriously. WHY SO BUSY??!! Gosh. And now I haven't started much of my homework. So yeah I'm dead. And I'm still here blogging. Aah but like I said blogging is a necessity for me. Haha hey, it trains my writing skills. Lol.

WOOHOOO I've received the letter fiona posted! Yay she didn't forget. Aah I didn't think she would (WOULD YOU, FIONA?) Hahaha. And I really thought the postcards were special. Cheat my feelings cheat my money cheat my time! (quote fadhly! AAAH CAP!) But anyway, it was a letter and a letter is still a letter so I'm just happy to receive a letter! :D Oooh and I'm so glad I finally managed to pass aunty constance her letter. Heh. I found out who the NEW DGL is :D Teeheehee. From secret sources! Yeah right. And I thought it was supposed to be a surprise?! Hmm. I wonder...

Watched I Not Stupid Too while visiting my paternal grandma today. At last. Haha. I didn't bother watching at the CAC camp cause I already missed the beginning and I never like catching shows in the middle. The show really made me think. GOODNESS, what a privilege it is to be in RG! SERIOUSLY! It scares me to think of it. Among the top 5% or something like that in Singapore. Ohhh man. And yesterday when we were all ooh-ing and aah-ing at the whole bunch of MEDICINE students at daniel's party, it made me realise the craziness of RGS AND RJC. Prestige, prestige, prestige man. Pressure. Oh man! How to be an arts + humance student in RJ like that!!!!! Actually I'm pretty worried about my career. Really. I'm not exactly pursuing something really passionately yet and I think the "too-late" period is arriving soon. So I'm doomed for the rest of my life!! AAAH! You know like you always hear big celebrities being actors/actresses from young, like the age of 4 or something they already starred in the school play or that sorta thing. And by 15 they were lead actors in their school drama group. It's like, their path was marked out for them since young already. Things like that don't happen overnight. And I'm 15 now and I haven't done anything! OH NO! WHAT HAVE I BEEN DOING FOR 15 YEARS!! Ok I'm 14+. What's the diff.

Oh yeah. I not stupid too reminded me of the CAC camp 2nd day (or last day. dots...) workshop on CONNECTING WITH MAN, in other words friendship. The guy said this: Notice that the people whom you see SERIOUSLY stick to one another through thick and thin, be there for each other NO MATTER WHAT, are, guess who?
Gangs.
Really. When they say they'll always be there to save you from your trouble, they mean it. You call them up and the whole gang comes running and ready for a fight. And they will fight and die for their "brothers". They mean it.
I think that's something we should indeed look up to, regardless how notorious such people are, especially in the eyes of Christians. I do admire their loyalty towards their "brothers".
And there was one part in the movie where joshua ang reached out his hand to shawn lee when shawn lee fell in the carpark (running away after stealing the old woman's necklace), and the camera zoomed in on the scene of hand pulling hand up.
WOW.
It was so touching. Cliche as it is, friends picking you up when you fall, but this one was SERIOUS "picking your friend up when he falls". Joshua ang (i'm sorry i'm just not used to calling them by character name) stuck by shawn lee throughout the whole time of him turning rebellious, going against his father, joining the gang, all that. And that time when shawn lee bumped the gangster and he called joshua ang to hurry come help him fight them.
Brothers. A word we use so casually - "brothers and sisters in Christ". Do we really show that kind of brotherly love towards one another? Sail through both rough and smooth seas together? The quality of our friendships now are so PATHETIC. Admit it. What are we gonna do about that?

Talking about the CAC camp. I haven't blogged about it yet right!! Hahaha. Oh but I don't think you want me to start. Ok I shall just write an overview. Haha. Which I bet would be a bore already to most of you. But who cares! :P
You know when you describe church camps, most of the time you either say it's FUN, or it's FULFILLING, right?The 2 main purposes of most church camps. Well I cna give you an example of a really really FUN camp. Last year's ENCOUNTER camp in malacca. It was super enjoyable cause of the friends and BONDING in the 4 days at the hotel(: And I will give you another example - of a fulfilling camp. This one. The combined CAC churches CONNECT! camp. (HA! OH GOSH! IT'S QUINTUPLE ALLITERATION!) I learnt a lot from the rather short 2 days! Can you imagine! Compared to the 4-day camp last year, which I got nothing much out of except warmer friendships! This time the prayer labyrinth was expecially good too. The experience was just very very different from doing it with our own WOW people. And I felt God's presence more REAL this time:) Loved it. Wrote a poem.
BUT they didn't allow us to go out at night! Like, WHY?! Hello!!! It's a 2-day camp!! There's only the first and last night! LET US STAY UP LAH?! Don't that kind of things happen at any and every camp! They had people sitting at the glass door area waiing and watching for people to come outta their rooms. Sigh. Plee, liz, charlene and I played cards in the dark with our handphones as torches before we got really sian. So we slept. Ha.

Just now in the bath I was thinking about things that piss me off real easily. Here's a list I managed to come up with, but obviously I can't remember some.
1. slow internet!
2. people telling me the ending of a show or the results of a reality TV show before I actually watch it for myself. Really. I HATE people telling me that ok so don't ever EVER try it or good luck.
3. people who just cannot or don't want to? pee properly so their pee gets squirted all over the toilet seat?! Or people who don't FLUSH the toilet!
4. annoying noisy childish kids or old ladies who practically shout across the whole bus when talking to someone sitting just next to them

Oh and you know what . I'm still VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY VERY pissed that I didn't get to go walking in the park on friday night at the chalet. I've been harping on that irritating memory for 1 week already. A PERFECT OPPORTUNITY GONE! SHEEESH MAN! THANKS A LOT! Really. Thanks!

Ok my eyes hurt like crap. I need to sleep. TRAINING later today! Oh yes I went cycling just now. FUN:) But that exhilarating feeling was not there cause I just cycled last week and even then just a few months ago we cycled on olly + sihui'a birthday, so yeah no feeling.

NIGHT:)

Haven't blogged properly for ages. If you want a definition of properly, it means sitting down here for a very long time thinking as I write. Not just random sudden small lil posts like the previous one. HAHA. So yeah this one doesn't count either ok?
HOMEWORK. I was about to say I hate school then stupid pak had to tell me "SCHOOL IS DAMN FUN LAH" and all the treasure your youth and you got school hols and all that. Aww crap he's making me feel guilty. ARGH fine. I LOVE SCHOOL WOOHOO!! LOVE IT TO BITS! I WANNA GO THERE EVERY DAY EVERY MINUTE EVERY SECOND CAUSE IT TOTALLY ROCKS MAN! IF ONLY I COULD SPEND MY ENTIRE LIFE IN THAT GREEN BLACK WHITE BUILDING! I NEVER WANNA LEAVE SCHOOL!

Lol.
Bye bye.

OH MY GOSH HOW STUPID CAN I BE?!
SUCH A CARELESS THING TO DO!
YIKEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS I'm really really really really scared now!
ARGHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HELP! HELP HELP HELP HELP I CANNOT LOSE IT! CANNOT.
OH GOSH. WHAT IN THE WORLD AM I GONNA DO.
DEAD! YIKES!
DEAD!
THIS FEELING STINKS!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SAVE ME OH MAN OH MAN OH MAN I'M SERIOUSLY VERY WORRIED NOW.
ARGHARGHARGHARGHARGHARGHARGH!
STOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOPID!!!!!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

DG chalet!!!
Aww man. My hair's still wet. So wet. How am I gonna sleep like that? I'm really sleepy. Heh. Sigh. Slept so much at chalet. 4 hours?! Gah. Bad bad bad.
I am yawning like crazy now. Oh geez. Maybe I won't blog about the chalet tonight after all. But all I can say, in this sleepy soon-zonking-out mood, is that I LOVED IT!!!!!!!! :D And today was even FUNNER!! Haha, oh maybe both were equally fun, but that's not the point anyway. Briefly first:

yesterday
- tried to check in at 2.30, weren't allowed cause no one was above 18. got arnette who was at paya lebar to come settle the check-in for us. (THANK GOD for arnette! :))
- while waiting for the rescue team (of 1 person...) to arrive, we ate at the foodcourt opposite Wild Wild Wet.
- put down stuff (DELUXE ROOM whoa!! like a hotel, even! NICE MAN! :D), waited for peggy and chanyi to arrive
- charmaine, andrea, shermaine, seeyue, min feng and I cycled at pasir ris park while peggy and chanyi got the food over
- peggy, chanyi, fiona, dawn ARRIVED!!! WOOHOOOHOOOO at long last! :)
- BARBEQUE!! YEEHA! Fun fun fun. And woh, the heat and ash and smoke were killers. I choked on the smoke many many times. Not good for a throat that's worsening in condition currently.
- watched WORLD CUP! Germany won!! (what's so surprising.)
- walked around in cheers (bought food) and the downtown area
- played cards in chalet
- zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

today
- woke up, checked out
- had Mac's for breakfast, sat around and talked (well actually, more like stone for the rest of them) for a while, dawn, andrea and I walked AROUND (hahahaha!) the area cause we were full and bored
- cycled!!! That's for charmaine, andrea, min feng, dawn and I. Shermaine, seeyue and chanyi stayed at the shops around the place and fiona and peggy played pool (not fairrr we're underaged:(((( by just 1 YEAR!!
- since everyone (except dawn, fiona, peggy, ME!) was so so SO STONED, we (most of us...) decided to head home (man, the disappointment on hearing that was like a huge rush) so then we began out loooooooooooong journey home.
- andrea, shermaine and I really didn't wanna go home so after thinking and choosing between options, almost everyone (andrea, shermaine, charmaine, min feng, peggy and I) ended up going to fiona's house. HAHAHAHAH. joke man. (oh yeah fiona decided not to go for the senior bbq cause she wasn't feeling very well. Ooh her voice is hoarse man!)
- played uno, monopoly, bridge, then one by one min feng, shermaine, andrea and charmaine went home. Left...just me. HA. And fiona and dawn, of course.
- played bridge and knaves (taught by smartypants fiona. It's a 3-player version of bridge, with WEIRDER rules and more strategy involved. Pretty interesting, but SIAO! Ha. Find out why.) and obviously, talked
- went to thomson plaza for dinner!! and talked and talked all the way from before to after (not like we stopped even when we got back to the house.)
- i got a lift from uncle Loi to serene centre!! And back home I came. Yup yup yup.

YAWN. Ha. Night!
Combined service tomorrow. 69th church anniversary. Wow. Our church is old:) We've received God's blessings and grown for such a long time! YEAH!


we are the champions my friends
we keep on fighting till the end

living each day like it's my last
You know the bad thing about that?
You live worrying. All the time, in every situation, every moment, you'll just be filled with worry and where's the enjoyment then?
Cause you'll be spending your time thinking and questioning whether right then you're really making the most of the time, and you just keep wishing that the time will pass less quickly, making you sub-consciously count down to the end. That is REALLY not enjoyment.
Get what I mean?
I have a feeling no one understands that cause no one cares so much. I know I think a lot, and way too deep as well.
Sigh.


Anyway. The "bbq" (what bbq?!) was fun. Really fun. Just that, like I said, I was just spending time counting down till the end and wishing that the time could last longer.
I HATE THAT FEELING! :(
Now I'm even worried about that june hols ending. There're still 3 weeks. ONLY 3 weeks, you mean.
I'm not being negative. I'm just making sure that I really make the most of EVERY SINGLE MOMENT.
Ha, stop lying to yourself.

I wonder how I'm supposed to enjoy then. And how I'm gonna live with no regrets.

Why is life such a complicated thing?!
Seriously, do you think I think way too much? So much that it's affecting the way I live and that I should learn to relax so that I can truly enjoy my life? Or something like that?

Up to now I still love Who Am I so so so so so so much. Thanks again dawn! For sending the 3 songs over! :)
Last night was great:) I mean this morning. Listening to music all the way till 430am.
Aah, I won't start on that. I'll never stop blabbering. Esp since I'm in that precise mood. (which I don't like.)

And I blog so much, I think it's real bad. I'm not even supposed to be online now.
AAH CRAP. I don't care. I NEED to blog. It's not that I want. Well, of course I want I mean, but it's both necessity and desire. So yeah. That's my reason (not excuse).


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My post does not suit the title. Cause I didn't wanna post about those already. You don't know what the title is, so nevermind. Hahaha. Ok fine if you wanna know, the title was "irritating father, irritating nose." LOL.

It's just a sudden urge to blog. Though I don't have any very interesting thing to say. I already wrote it all down in my BLACKBOOK this morning :)

I'm stressed over HOLIDAYS. I'm nuts. Want explanations? Eh. Too long. Ask me. Hahaha.

YEEEEEEEEHA we're gonna have DG chalet on fri-sat! WOOHOO man so fun! Yayy! And I'm gonna aim not to sleep at all. Anyone care to join me? :) Play cards, talk, laugh, crap, eat, aah whatever. I may not be able to last though. Well I'll aim for 4 or 5 am then.
Exploring in FASS was real fun:) So so so so thrilling. Wish I went further though. Too bad:(
I love night.
I hope we get to go out exploring during the chalet.

Yest (celebration sunday) was fun :) Ethel and I helped give out bulletins cause the ushers were busy painting their faces and staying downstairs to welcome the people. Twas fun:) And aaron had to come along and disrupt our smooth-going job. Haha. But he ran away after a while. The clapping hands were SO NOISY! Hahaha! Oh yeah saturday was really really fun too! Or have I mentioned that? So glad I got to go to church. Hahaha. We stayed in the WOW hall disturbing the worship team with those clapping hands for a while before going down to tie balloons to the pillars. We all REALLY don't have the gift of deco-art yes. Ahahaha. But it was so funny going high and laughing and climbing ladders and chairs (and thanks fiona!! for killing the mozzie and getting a bleeding hand and having to run to the toilet. and for steadying the ladder. Haha. Your life was at risk. AWW man.) I love going out with church friends:) Like dawn said, they're like a family you know you can always turn to. YEAH MAN! And only such people can make even going to a super super BORING place like westmall a great time. (haha, go ahead, feel honoured!)

Gee. My over-sensitive nose is ready for battle all over again. Sighhh.
And it's time for lunch. Byee!


turning into something I dread.

long goodbyes
I hate goodbyes. Hate the feeling that you gotta part with someone/some people for a period of time (long or short, aint matter), and you gotta wait a WHILE before seeing her/him/them again. Very sad.










I haven't finished my CAP poem! Oh nononono. If I delay any longer I'm gonna lose the feeling and then writing it won't be so sincere anymore. Ooh sigh. I shall try when I'm feeling more awake.

I konked out in my grandma's house today. Heh. Eve and I slept until about 4. Then came ETHEL jumping and bouncing on the bed together with faith clapping those CHAO SI REN hands. Sigh. Haha. Funny sight. Ethel is CUTE :D

Oh no I forgot I'm banned from saying that word! Hahaha.

I still love dove shampoo :)

I think my random blog posts are REALLY SO RANDOM man. Why do people blog-surf so much, btw? I only bother going to my closer friends' blogs. Not like very very un-close people and then snoop and pry and start gossiping around about what they posted. LOL.

I borrowed books today! Yay!

Training tomorrow. Need it, seriously. Scared to imagine how rusty I've become. Aah sigh.

Zokay. Have a whole lotta things to catch up on these 3 weeks. Here's a snippet of the never-ending list...
1. CAP journal
2. CAP mentorship portfolio
3. read LOTF, LOTR, all library books
4. read CHINESE books -_____________-
5. all other homework
6. write!!!!
7. convention stuff
8. HAVE FUN.
And loads more! All recorded in my notebook so it doesn't matter. Unless you're so kaypo, hahahaha.

Hey, I realise I miss AS3 and AS7! Cripe! I miss CAP! Hahahaha. What's new. NUS is SERIOUSLY a world of its own. Pretty scary and weird sometimes.

Sleepy sleepy eyes. Goodnight!

I owe, urm, myself. 2 poems. yes.

high
Hahaha. 2.06 am. And I've been pretty high since I came over. Hahaha.
Went to church to help fiona and dawn and mei khiun with the packing of goodie bags, hanging balloons, etc. And then we [fiona, dawn, xiaohui, me] went to westmall bk for dinner. Walked around for a while. Dawn and I went high so often. Hahahaha. And oh I liked what we talked about at dinner! (: And then eve suddenly messaged me telling me that I COULD come over!! Hahaha. So here I am.
Yayness man.
Eve called me the freak of nature. HURT man. Hahahaha. She says I scare her. Hahahaaha. Whats new. That's just me when I'm high.

I've only blogged for 5 minutes?!
That seems so short. Hahaha.

Maybe I'm tired.

Eve's talking to coeway on the phone.

I really really miss late-night convos man.

post CAP syndrome, #2
I'm gonna have about 10, maybe. Haha. Until church camp, probably. Then it'll start to evolve into post church camp syndrome. Haha, nuts.

Zokay. Here are some of my favourite poems that I wrote during the camp :) I can't believe I REALLY started writing about SOCIAL ISSUES more than just personal stuff! Cool cool! :D And I'm currently working on a poem on my CAP experience as a whole. But I wrote for about an hour - 10 stanzas, and I got really REALLY tired so I'm just gonna continue it another day:) You'll see it soon. Yay:)


bothering bites
If I were to count
the number of red lumps
scattered over my limbs,
I might never stop.
Lumps that originate
from the source of a tiny dot
that gradually emerges into a mound.
With one pinch
out comes the lava
spilling over the sides.
Leaving behind a new dot -
larger, darker,
more biting pain.

Maybe it's not such a good idea to
make a mountain out of a molehill.

And maybe I'd rather not provoke my thoughts,
For the lava might overwhelm.


sea beauty
(inspired by geography)
The waves roll in,
strong, violent;
storming with a growing urge
to crash, splash, destroy.
Approaching, menacing,
and CRASH.
They break on the gradiented platform,
scooping the defenseless, minute
grains of sand,
swashing back into the sea;
sand being left behind as
that wave disappears,
and on comes another one.

The waves swirl in.
softly, gently;
water bobbing up and down
in endless mounds,
seemingly dancing to the
silently singing wind;
flowing slowly
and sneaking gifts onto the shore
as though afraid of recognition of good will.
Creeping swiftly away;
disappeared.

I stand on the bridge
watching, pondering;
drumming my fingers on the railing
as day finally slips into night.

If only we had the patience.


stop watching it slip by
She clomped around
in the size-9 slippers;
flip flop, flip flop,
gazing in the mirror at that little girl with big feet.
"Mummy, I want YOUR shoes!"

She stared dreamily at the classroom clock.
Fascinating.
A whole, complex concept
compressed into a circle
with 12 numbers and 3 sticks
circling round and round
and round.
5 4 3 2 1.
The bell!
And off the sticks went again.
She wondered what her mum was doing at the moment.

She watched the kids at the playground
gleefully clapping, laughing, playing
to their heart's content.
5 4 3 2 1.
"Ready or not, here I come!"
Her eyes reflected the coloiur of the grass
on which the bench stood.
As she ruffled her child's hair,
her mind played the scene
of that strand of hair
floating to the ground.

Fascinating.
A whole complex concept
just reduced to a
cycle in a circle.

Maybe you'd like for it to stop.
But it can't.
Won't you stop watching it slip by?


On a not-so-thoughtful-and-philosophical note [:)] ...

paperchase
you shove the 20-page think set of
handouts
into my unwilling hands;
dump the mountain-high pile of
worksheets
on my desk that is already diminishing in size;
prance around the classroom distributing
exam papers
as I groan in silent resignation.
my eyes scour the blur of words,
shift,
and lost they are.

so what?
where will all the paperwork lead me to?
couldn't you let me use my left hand instead?

(note: take note of the use of small letters :) )


university (as seen by a secondary school student visiting at camp)
these peach-coloured walls
bending inward to the front
khaki-brown table-seats
arranged in 6 neat rows
in this tiny, cosy,
confined space of a seminar room
and that bright green door
with its square peep-through window
an eye staring right across the room.

maroon-coloured chairs
ground to the splendidly red-carpeted floor
beginning at the left and circling round to
meet the stage on the right
black platform with
podium propped upright
standing tall for all its grandeur
rows of lights pasted on the ceiling
spilling over the seats and stage
a glowing beauty
in this theatrette, LT 13.

mirror, mirror on the wall
doubling the size of the dance theatre
wooden platform stinking of shoes
into grey , flat dance floor
on which pointed toes and light feet float
such a wide space for freedom of expression

looming glass doors
extending from ceiling to floor
cold, polished marble tiling (i think)
in the comfortable coolness of air-conditioning
outdoor amphi theatre
with plants all around
AS7, resembling an office tower.

still, the Central Library
tutorial rooms
dean's office
and the whole campus beyond the isolated Eusoff Hall
remain a mystery.

I'm sick of classrooms.



Yay! Done! I've got more actually. But they're unpolished. Haha.
TIRED. I thought of continuing my CAP poem but ah, no. No brain juice left:)

WOOHOOOOOOOOO I <3 CAP MAN! YAHOOOO :D
You should have seen me last night, with alina. I was DRUNK, jumping and dancing around. Hahahahaha. It's amusing how she blows her head off at her driver while he doesn't seem to care! Haha! FUNNNNNY:) I was really high almost every night. Hahahaha. ESP last night. Even pak and fadhly gave me weird looks like 10 times or so. Heehee haha hoho i'm high now:) Really high. My msn nick says: "
CAP <33333333 hahahahaahahahahahaahahahahahahahahhaa i'm so super high i'm scaring myself! XD"

Yayness. I'm going off soon. TATA!! (haha reminds me of the JC drama - "so tata for now!" hahahaha.)

post CAP syndrome
I knew I'd have it. It's already starting now, and it's only 4 hours since I was last standing in AS7 - the Shaw Foundation building in FASS, NUS.

One word - WOW.

CAP sem was a BLAST. The last 2 days were the best! The get-together dinner, the closing ceremony, the performance and the FRIENDS made. Man. I love the councillors. They're all so nuts and crappy and FUN people!!! :D Exactly what councillors should be to make a camp FUN! Yes! And the food was SPLENDID. So great, even better than food court food. Eating that kinda food in a camp is like eating hotel buffet on a normal day. Seriously. Twas great man, the food :D I bet crawshaw would love me for saying that. Hahaha. Oh and that guy video-ing us tonight was so SCARY! Suddenly point the camera at me! I was like dumbfounded!! rhythmic fusion's performace was SUPERB! We gave them standing ovation!! :D Oh and that rajiv sth person's speeh was SO GOOD. About "writers are just as important as neorosurgeons." and how we YOUNG ASPIRING WRITERS should not be afraid to express ourselves through the arts even in S'pore cause it is NECESSARY to make then aware of the lack of emphasis. So our spirit must continue(: The councillors gave him a standing ovation!! i wouldn't mind giving him one too! HE WAS GREAT! SUPER INSPIRING!

Yeah. This camp inspired me A LOT to write more and write more often. I actually wrote almost 10 poems within these 5 days! Siao right. Record-breaking. I love writing so much mor after this camp :D

Gosh. Sleepiness kicking in. SIGH. Aha, at least I got the more important stuff written about, the rest will be left till later (:

Night.