07 June 2006
12:19 AM
living each day like it's my lastYou know the bad thing about that?
You live worrying. All the time, in every situation, every moment, you'll just be filled with worry and where's the enjoyment then?
Cause you'll be spending your time thinking and questioning whether right then you're really making the most of the time, and you just keep wishing that the time will pass less quickly, making you sub-consciously count down to the end. That is REALLY not enjoyment.
Get what I mean?
I have a feeling no one understands that cause no one cares so much. I know I think a lot, and way too deep as well.
Sigh.
Anyway. The "bbq" (what bbq?!) was fun. Really fun. Just that, like I said, I was just spending time counting down till the end and wishing that the time could last longer.
I HATE THAT FEELING! :(
Now I'm even worried about that june hols ending. There're still 3 weeks. ONLY 3 weeks, you mean.
I'm not being negative. I'm just making sure that I really make the most of EVERY SINGLE MOMENT.
Ha, stop lying to yourself.
I wonder how I'm supposed to enjoy then. And how I'm gonna live with no regrets.
Why is life such a complicated thing?!
Seriously, do you think I think way too much? So much that it's affecting the way I live and that I should learn to relax so that I can truly enjoy my life? Or something like that?
Up to now I still love Who Am I so so so so so so much. Thanks again dawn! For sending the 3 songs over! :)
Last night was great:) I mean this morning. Listening to music all the way till 430am.
Aah, I won't start on that. I'll never stop blabbering. Esp since I'm in that precise mood. (which I don't like.)
And I blog so much, I think it's real bad. I'm not even supposed to be online now.
AAH CRAP. I don't care. I NEED to blog. It's not that I want. Well, of course I want I mean, but it's both necessity and desire. So yeah. That's my reason (not excuse).
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