25 July 2006
8:58 AM
catching upWow. I'm impressed at myself. Haven't blogged for more than a week. Whoopee.
Still feels like the world is revolving around me. Still feeling the blues most of the time.Still have no mood to do anything and it's affecting both my studies and basketball and my friendships. That stinks man. Stinks bad.Still find that the world would be a better place without me.Still feel that God is so distant now...and I'm not even making effort to go back to Him.Still feel like nothing matters to me and I don't matter to anyone.I need to write a poem. Seriously.
I hate school. It messes up my plans. Esp in desperate times like this.
I don't make sense. (Never did, but seldom this bad...)
I wanna write a poem. I need to forget about homework for a day. Or I'll have no time.
Watching PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN later :) I hope it helps. I know one tree hill will help. I may watch it tomorrow. Before math test. Hmmmm. I don't wanna fail :(
Claire hit 52% for her 3-pointers yest. YOU GO GIRL :D 52%!!! Crazy nut! Sometimes my free throws don't even hit 50&. But well. She's claire. I'm cheryl. Uh-uh, big difference! Anyway. YEAH MAN CLAIRE! <3
> YOU. YOU ROCK :)
Tired of hiding. REALLY. I'm repetitive. Sigh. Well, need to say it.
What IS with the stupid facade?!!!!!!!!!!!I am gonna fail chem.
I should seriously stop falling asleep in lessons. Sleepiness was never a problem for me! I know I NEVER fell asleep in class ever until this year. ARGH. MY BODY IS FAILING ME. I AM FAILING MYSELF. IM' FAILING EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE :((((((((((((((((((((
Crap. Now I'm wallowing in self-pity? No. This aint no self-pity. I don't PITY myself. C'mon. I'm just frustrated with myself. I'm not happy with MYSELF, not with what I have or don't have or whatever makes one pitiful.
Get it?
Aah. Whatever. My words pierce through others' hearts. My actions chase people away. I wonder whether people hate me as much as I hate myself.
HOW CAN GOD LOVE ME SO MUCH?!
I neeeeeeeeeeed to write a poeeeeeeeeeeeem.
shuttup, will you.
