01 September 2006
12:45 PM
pretences.How long can one keep them up? Seriously, is it that hard to stop?! GAH! Has it become so part and parcel of my daily habits? Is it really really really that hard to tell?????
Maybe one day you'll find my parents calling you up and asking whether you know where I am, when the last time you saw me was, when I left the whatever place, where in the world I said I was going to and whether I headed the correct way, how I was supposed to come home, blahblahblah. And you don't have to guess what happened. Cause you know you know.
Maybe something HUGE has to happen before someone(s) will finally realise. And I don't even know whether I hope for that.
I keep maybe-ing. Life is filled with so many possibilities, unexpected things, changes, and hope(unfulfilled, mostly.) I'm cynical.
I keep what-if-ing too. Life is filled with uncertainties and doubts.
I'm repeating what I wrote in my diary. So. No more. I'll leave you to interpret all these in whatever STUPID, SUPERFICIAL way you want to. Or maybe (again), you know. but:
1. you don't know what to do
2. you just don't care (and I don't blame you cause it's definitely NOT your fault, cause I don't deserve it anyway)
3. you think it aint that serious
4. you're waiting for others to do something
5. you think I can handle it on my own
6. you hate me
And let me repeat. I DON'T BLAME ANYONE ok? I mean, really. Not sarcastically. All this post is for is releasing. Yup. It isn't of any importance to you. Don't waste your time!
With that I leave you. Goodbye.
