09 October 2006
12:42 AM
potentialWhat's the point of potential that's never maximised?
What's the point of ceaseless cycles of trying and failing?
A time for everything.
But what if you can't tell when is what.
"Go next year la!"Think it's so easy? Think I haven't been saying that for the past 15 months?! Think it's just another trivial date on my calendar? Think it's as small a matter to me as it is to you?
You don't know, do you? Don't know how long I've waited. How many times I've tried. How desperately I've pleaded. How hard I prayed. Do you? Do you know?
You don't understand, do you? You don't see how much I want it.
And so you think you can just write it off with 4 words, "Go next year la!" and that's gonna make my day, bring a cheerful smile on my face and whoa, fill me up with so much hope. Like, yeah man. I feel so good knowing that WOOHOO! I can just wait another 12 months, ONCE AGAIN! Totally enjoyed the wait since last june, so much so that I'm stupendously eager to wait even more!
A time for everything.
I BELIEVE IT. I mean, I do, not being sarcastic.
feel my paindo you see the depths of my heart?
that which echoes of sadness and despair
of utter loss of hope.
do you see the tears I weep?
that which calls out in desperate plea
for just someone who'd provide.
do you feel my pain?
that which strangles my insides with its
inhumane wrenching of fragile fragments.
do you know me?
me, who hides, who shuns, who runs,
who fears.
do you care?
any thought of that girl who
constantly projects such delightful images?
do you love?
despite the inadequacies which pull
me down under, rip me apart?
do you feel?
do you feel my pain?
