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"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

"everything's gonna be okay"
really?
i sigh.
look into the future, what do i see?
look into your eyes, it says everything.
no chance, no more hope.
attempts at nothing.
no hope at all?
and i don't even know what i did wrong.
and don't know how to please you.
I'M TRYING, k. i'm trying.
not hard enough i admit. but i'm trying to try hard!
and i don't know why it's just not working!!!
God's plan?

i love blasting music.
it helps a lot.
drowning out?
perhaps.

where am i heading?

when confusion and hopelessness sets in,
i really don't know where to turn to.
who to look for.
what i'm working for.
WHAT AM I DOING.

i'm trying, i really really really really really am.
even if i can't match up to your/her standards, at least give me a chance?
i don't know,
i guess that's just not possible.
so why am i even hoping.
why am i even trying.
as much as i want it?
i guess i'll never reach it.
it's too late.
and she's gone too far and i have just fallen behind.
and i am gonna stay here i guess
or tag along.
what am i to you.
what am i worth to you.
or the rest of them.
if i'm unnecessary,
take me out then.
i'd rather now than later.
it'd hurt less.
i don't know.
i'm still hoping.
and still trying.
and still failing.

i look back
and i see something bright
but others not such a beautiful sight
no regrets huh.
why is that never so.

okok this is really not good,
the frequency of my emo-blogging.
but HECK MAN. this is a blog.
i shall rant.
as long as i don't offend people.
ohoh and i'm actually starting to swear.
i can think of 2 words/phrases i'm starting to use as normal words now.
(heck and screw up)
GREAT.

these open arms will wait for you
what open arms?!
and i'll be here for you
sure?

i'm determined to be more self-sacrificial.
if not what'd my motto be for man.

i hate that i keep losing
to you
and to you
and to you too.
maybe winner will never ever exist in my vocab.

poems.
that's it.
but not without inspiration i guess, which i haven't found yet,
so perhaps not poems.

problems?
a part of life.
a HUGE part of life.

i shall go memorise more oth quotes.