04 November 2006
10:40 PM
what do you do when you keep trying and failing?
what do you do when you keep trying to help but others just won't stop rejecting it?
am i not CUT OUT to offer help?
can you ever be not cut out to help? like, is helping a TALENT?! that only some people excel in?
i don't know what to say.
maybe i'm not fit to be part of the world.
am i helping in the wrong way.
am i trying too hard.
do i just do nothing well.
maybe the only thing good about this is that no matter what, i'm not giving up.
it's just, if i keep trying and failing, the frustration will NEVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER EVER END?! BUT JUST KEEP MOUNTING AND ONE DAY I MIGHT JUST BREAK DOWN AND DIE?!
i have gotten accustomed to the word "failure".
i wrote 4
emo poems in one go yesterday. that's an absolutely terrific sign.
