God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

here's the winner of 2007's Most UN-valuable Player Award!
and the award goes to...
CHERYL NG, #9, RGS BASKETBALL B DIV'07!

i ran my 5k this evening. well, more than 5k. i really should go find out the length of the whole track of limbang park so that i have an idea of how much i'm running exactly every time i go there to train. i think i ran about 6k today and took a darn long time to finish it. didn't pace myself and so went at a slightly-slower-than-2.4-run-pace for thr 1st 6 rounds before realising i was gonna die cause i was only half-done but 3/4 running out of energy. k cut the fractions, just agar. but anyway. i'm glad i ran MORE than 5k :) and i'm glad it's done. that's one worry down for now.

my poetry standard is like, nowhere. i'll be crushed if none of my poems get published in eye on the world, but ah well, i shouldn't expect much out of those poems i'm submitting.

i hate it when i insert a cd and the tracks come out on iTunes as Track 01, Track 02, Track 03 etc and the cd is called...hmm. Audio CD. Wowee, there's not a single other round disc thing in the world that's called an audio cd too?!

i don't have free msges anymore :( ok this has been so for a pretty long time but argh, i miss the times when i could msg 50 a day or so.

why do so many of my paragraphs start with "i"? GRAH CHERYL YOU ARE TOO SELF-CENTRED.

i kinda regret not signing up for the geog shanghai field trip. it's ok, it's ok i saved $1500. yes, there're many other opportunities available and currently we don't have the financial resources so it's a no-go. plus, i'll miss march hol trainings which are important cause they're for nationals. and if i go to shanghai, i'll come back on wednesday and leave for kl on thursday so i'll be extremely tired and not up-to-it to play in kl so my kl trip will be half a waste.
did that console you? cause if it did, maybe it would me too.

i shall do physics in school cause i wanna go sleep already :)

grey's anatomy is goooooooooood. hooray for a new nice show found :D it has voiceovers too! wheezah! just that the voice is nowhere in comparison to LUCAS SCOTT's and doesn't have the same effect nor are the quotes as good as one tree hill's, but nevertheless, it's a good show and i'm glad it's showing SATURDAY MORNINGS 12.30-1.30AM! (i am NOT gonna make the same stupid silly mistake of programming it for the wrong day cause of the stupid is-12am-tonight-or-tomorrow-morning question.)

blogs are so for ranting. xD

goodnight, mister tom! (whoever you are)

why are you in constant competition with yourself?

it hurts me to think that you probably won't miss me when i die.

ANGRY.
one tree hill isn't working.
and i'm supposed to do ss.

and again, i think i don't matter as much to you as i wish to.
I'M A BEAR. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.

false face must hide what the false heart doth know.
msn is so stupid, so full of lies and hypocrisy and hiding. that isn't exactly relevant to the quote cause that one's about the face, but whatever. i have lots of macbeth quotes stuck in my head now cause of the test, which was pretty ok, thank God.

i want songs.

i ripped out the ring binding of my pink funny farm notebook, cause the top and bottom were like in really sad condition. i kinda regret it, cause maybe something could have been done to save it and i needn't have destroyed the whole thing in frustration and on impulse. but ack, what's done is done.

i wanna make more lists. esp of things to do this year/before i die.

i feel really sad for my notebook. :(

i think that's the problem with the way i write, i'm so incoherent i always finish a paragraph on one point, move on to the next, and then go back to the previous point out of the blue again. totally no flow.

when i graduate and look back on my 4 years in sec school, i really wonder what will go through my mind.

i wonder what we're gonna do for rs tomorrow.

IT'S 23:06 AND I HAVEN'T BEGUN DOING SS. but i'm gonna sleep late today, fan zheng i slept extremely early last night and tomorrow is a chao slack day with like, philo and cle and rs. yepyep.

ok nvm give up goodnight.

it's chinese new year. meaning, holidays. meaning, happiness and freedom.
:)
also means catching up with relatives + friends + the inevitable homework and studies.
which is exactly what i'm NOT doing right now.
well, it's one tree hill and that's totally worth it :D plus, i can't watch it at home so this is VERY worth it!
ok i don't like the way i'm blogging now. i shall go continue watching, night.

there's a plan to make all of this right.

staying up every saturday night has turned into a norm for me. in fact, it's a necessity, one which i am both ashamed and proud of.
i don't know what you call this - emo-ing? that's just this general term used whenever people can't decide whether they are sad/upset/depressed/frustrated/irritated/just-wanna-be-alone etc. and emo was originally an adjective, but it has even evolved into a verb as well now. just take a look at what our generation is doing to the english language. but that's beside the point. back to the definition of emo. i don't know what it is either, so i shall just conclude that this staying up and gradual inclination towards alone-ness is NOT = emo-ing. it's possibly just me trying to get to know myself better and sort things out in peace. i thought i hate being alone, but i thought wrong, and i don't know whether it's a good thing and i'm scared it isn't.

they say all this is a phase. means it had a beginning and has an ending too. sometimes, i hate the word phase. i like some things to stay the way they are and never change. leave the starting part, maybe, but take away the ending, cause i want it to go on forever. it's not just about happiness, really. cause these phases teach you to enjoy sadness as well.

i'm not a good writer. so i don't understand why some people used to say i am and some still do and sometimes i even try to pretend to myself that i am.

some people are really good at attracting people to their blog and thus others don't stop reading that person's blog and will even bug him/her to blog once entries stop appearing for a few days.
i don't know what mine is and it probably is subjective anyway, but it's not a matter of great importance to me anyway.

i really don't want to die with regrets. but i don't know how to live without regrets either. i know my life isn't God-centred enough and much of it is spent satisfying worldly desires yet i'm not stopping myself. i actually think this is fulfilling. i don't know why i'm like that.

i've never had a best friend for as long as i can remember. i miss having one, really. and i don't even know what it feels like now to have a best friend, cause primary school friendships are so different from current ones.

"some are running scared." i'm some.

and when you find yourself lost in the darkness of despair remember, it's only in the black of night that you see the stars, and those stars lead you back home.

thank you, you. you may not know it, but i really appreciate our togetherness, our friendship, our closeness. you've made a significant difference in my life and i must really thank you tonnes and tonnes for everything.

what does a loner feel like? (besides lonely).


reminiscence
then i was happy
but now i'm not.
in future i'll look back and say
"then i was happy
and now i'm not."


Do not look back and grieve over the past, for it is gone, and do not be troubled about the future, for it has yet to come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful that it will be worth remembering. -Ida Scott Taylor


the other day in philo class we were asked to imagine what life would be without...
and i thought of: music. and friends. and God.
there's a lot you might learn about yourself just from asking that question.


i'm hungry. i feel like eating noodles.
if i were to migrate, 2 types of food i'll miss like crazy would be noodles and chilli. :D


i wanna go to the place eve was talking about in kallang area. it's a must!


i've planned 5 things to do on graduation day already :) how bout you?
yesterday we were singing the graduation song and i was thining, can someone else please come up with a new song cause it's seriously getting on my nerves, the way they play the same song year after year for the sec4s. borriiinnggggg. and then it also hit me that we're finally gonna sing it for real, for us, not for seniors. man, i've turned into an old sec 4 already. just 5 years back i was crying over leaving primary school. right.


k i'm gonna send songs to myself. morning! (3:13am)