God's child
dance
music
basketball
loves people!!! :D

"let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful." hebrews 10:23

live for others. make a difference.

i am the smartest person in the world, you know?
and omg i love myself so much no one could beat me.
i have the greatest sense of timing, greater than even a metronome or an hourglass. more accurate than any clock tower in the world.
now i can finally (not like i was looking forward to it) say, for real, it's too late to apologise.
BUT I'M SO SORRY.
sheesh la.

anyway! on an urm, happier note? hahaha my foot. no not that my foot is on a happier note >< but on a happier note, chinese was surprisingly easy :P paper 2 i mean. i actually could've finished earlier wahaa. and paper 1, well. yingyongwen was alright, wrote so much la gwah. zuowen the question was like ?!?!??!?! i could have written loads in english i think, but translating all my info to chinese was sure no easy feat. ohwell, with God's grace (i refuse to say luck/crossed fingers,etc) i should be able to get at least a c5 (heh i have low expectations for chinese so dont go like WTH SHE'S ONLY AIMING FOR C5?! AND SHE JUST SAID THE PAPER WAS EASY?! plus my chinese is... let's not go there :/) and if not for the stupid zuowen perhaps maybe even b3? grahs.

208 lunch tomorrow, looking forward to it very much :D miss them like nuts. and a huge thankyou to mr ganesh for offering to order pizza :)

and oh wow i feel realy lucky too. of all days, a giant sinus bug decided to crawl into my nose nerves this morning at the bestest timing ever ie just a few minutes before my paper started.

oh guess what! there're available chalets after all.
sighhhhhhh.
unnecessary stress.
MAYBE THAT EXPLAINS MY SINUS LOLLOLLOLLIPOP.

and now my internet connection has gone wonky on me! thankyou!

current music: history - matthew west
(which so nicely cannotbe dl-ed into my iPod for whoknowswhatreason so i'm stuck with listening to it only on iTunes grrrr.)

emo fringe.
screamo song.
therapy.
this world?
fear not.
know not.
understand not.
punching bag!

以泪洗脸。

I AM A HAPPY PERSON!

emo fringe.
screamo song.
therapy.
this world?
fear not.
know not.
understand not.
punching bag!

以泪洗脸。

up·root/[uhp-root, -root]
–verb (used with object)
1. to pull out by or as if by the roots: The hurricane uprooted many trees and telephone poles.
2.to remove violently or tear away from a native place or environment: The industrial revolution uprooted large segments of the rural population.
3.to destroy or eradicate as if by pulling out roots: The conquerors uprooted many of the native traditions.
4.to displace, as from a home or country; tear away, as from customs or a way of life: to uproot a people.

a file i'll never throw away, a cd i can't burn, a blog i can't ignore, a group i can't delete.
to be torn away from,? voluntary vs involuntary?
does it matter?

i never expected shopping for prom to be such a hassle. maybe i'm just fussy, to the max. anyway i really like shopping with olly :) thank you dear!

Make Poverty History. Stand up, speak out!

i can't barre chords aah!! sad!

terribly in need of new playlists. and well, good music. any to recommend, anyone? :)

options have ended. i thoroughly enjoyed bio, fully regret not opting for Young Adult's Poetry, and am just, ... for the history course. did i mention i don't like war movies? geez.

my com doesn't have speakers. it pisses me off quite immensely because i've to use earpieces whose wires are like REALLY SHORT so they can hardly extend all the way to the back of the pc...and prolonged usage of earpieces is, of course, not good for my ears. :(

i really really like floorball. the game(s) today was very fun! xD

WE'RE LEAVING SCHOOL IN 2 WEEKS. oh my are we old.

my tongue still hurts from the scalding from the coffee. gahs. lousy.

yawns. goodnight, world.

music: i will carry you - clay aiken

who am i?

"what i didn't realise was that what whitey teaches these boys goes beyond the simple game... and i cannot put that into statistics. it may not translate into championships. but if you put too much focus on those things, in the end all you're gonna end up with is a sad bunch of boys who never learn to leave the game behind."
- karen roe, one tree hill 304

what do we go home to?

i'm not crazy
i'm just a little unwell
i know right now you can't tell
but stay a while and maybe then you'll see
a different side of me
i'm not crazy
i'm just a little impaired
i know right now you don't care
but soon enough you're gonna think of me
and how i used to be

gotten over my depression over exam results already (:
i still can't accept nor believe that i failed poetry though. but. whatever.
well anyway, WHO CARES IF I CAN'T GET MY HUMANS SCHOLARSHIP, RIGHT? I MEAN LIKE, SERIOUSLY, WHO CARES??!

i need: one tree hill, ice-cream, and retail therapy. 2 of which i will get tonight (:


and my life doesn't revolve around that, anyway.

tonight will be self-reflection night. i am really looking forward to it.

perhaps i'm selfish. perhaps not.

i <3 planetshakers. and i <33 music.

less than a month left to prom and i haven't even started shopping. wow. am i efficient or what.

ruuuuuunnnnnnnn awaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyyyyyyyy.

title/post:
"I am in blood stepped so far that, should i wade no more, returning were as tedious as ne'er." -Macbeth


my, mind is lost.
city lights gleaming overhead;
a blinding array of
glorious reflections.

the sky a pitch black abyss,
inverted.
a chilly pool for none to wade.

fluffy cotton clouds hanging in space;
mindless entities riding along with
the call of the wind.

mind, my is lost.
air night the'in along carried particles dust-like
here. from go, i do.
where?



buzz off, buggers 123.
[1] it is not possible to live between 2 worlds, nor to live (happily) in both. and even if it's possible to live in neither, do you wish for that?
[2] i don't know.
[3] 2 weeks minus one day left!


as normal as this might get/

i am going to learn guitar sooonsoooonsooooon if not now.

dance today was awesomeeee :D to think i actually hesitated before getting out of my house. <33!

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current music: elsewhere by bethany joy lenz

p/s. i have emo hair :p
pp/s. and i thought this was gonna be a longwinded paragraphy rant kind of post.


"For I am not seeking my own good but the good of many, so that the might be saved." 1Cor 10:33

i
need to think. and i
need to blog.
reflection post i mean,
not just
random rantings.
i've been reflecting really
little of late.
and this isn't poetry
(quote claire),
i'm just typing
the exact way my thoughts
are coming out.
frag/mented.
dis joint ed.
this could pass
off as poetry,
in fact.
i haven't had time to reflect.
i hate having no time to reflect.
i blame math.
i blame a lot of things.
i think i'm selfish.
oh my.
i am selfish.
and i am sorry.
(i always am, why?
it's probably cause i always do the wrong
thing or say the wrong thing or behave the wrong way or just
let everybody down.)
and i am turning emo, aint i?
no actually.
math test is
tomorrow.
i can't wait for it to
be gone.
i have lots of things to catch up on.
OMG WHY AM I SO SELFISH?!
music.
soothes the soul.
frees themind.
drives me crazy,
sometimes.
we are watching a "depressing, not in the
touching way but the truly depressing
serious solemn way" movie
tomorrow.
it's on hitler.
did i mention, i
don't like history.
anyway,
watching a depressing movie
is a nice thought.
really it is.
who am i trying to kid.
maath go and die,
studying doesn't help for me anyway
not academically-inclined means
not academically-inclined.
it's sad to give up and i
used to believe in persevering,
it's not like i don't now but,
it's not my motto anymore so it
holds less weight
and that
isn't the point actually
but. wait.
what was i saying?
nevermind.
commas are nice, appealing, aren't they,
i don't feel like studying.
.........................
.........................
.........................
ellipsis
would be better.
i should go off now.
and if you ask, yes,
i'm irritated and i wish -
nevermind.
%%&$&%($^#%#&$**$(%($%%#&$*
no, that wasn't swearing. it was
simply angst.
which is a word that doesn't exist
according to our DMF teacher.
but will in a few years.
i hate being cranky.
not in the good way of
course.
i should go.
goodnight, babies.