12 April 2008
7:48 PM
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the more i dance, the surer i am i won't regretsudden craving for ben and jerry's. peanut butter! (i forgot the fancy name for that flavour..)
anyway. i've a clarification to make. a few, in fact. but first and foremost,
I'M PERFORMING FOR CHORALE CONCERT!!! sorry to everyone whom i've told i'm not performing anymore, so for those of you who changed your mind about going, please re-change it xDD basically i talked to aileen about it again and it IS possible to commit to chorale all the way until 6 may so woohooooooo :D (and this is when you start coming to me to order tickets. hahahaha. :P)
and now, the clarification i set out to make.
i AM sure of my decision, to drop chorale for street. i couldn't be more sure that i'm gonna love street (i already do (: ) for the next 2 years. i love every minute i spend with them, and won't ever regret the choice i made.
so the issue is not about choosing street over chorale, but simply, having to leave chorale
strongly against my will. i can't possibly express how annoyed, frustrated, pissed off, irritated, crushed, upset, disappointed,
, i am that i was forced to quit. it's the letting go that's the hardest. after 3 months with them, it's no easy feat to just say goodbye and walk away.
so what made me finally decide to stay in street? i'll sum it up in one sentence: i'd rather be a good dancer than a good singer.
we're having street prac practically every day. it's been like that since the beginning of street night practices i think, and we haven't had a break since street night either cause we're currently all chionging practices for humanz busking next sat (come support!!! 12-6pm outside heeren/taka. approach me/any streeter for more info!) and sun.
but i could dance like that and never get sick of it.
claire, yen, jamie and i met mr ang for dinner last night. we had a good chat at s11, it was great catching up with them after such a long time.
sometimes i think about basketball, about myself as a player last time, about my 4 years in rgbball and the games i remember best, about my batchmates, my team, about the jerseys, the name, the legacy... and you bet i miss it.
and even up till now, i still have people asking why i dropped basketball for chorale, and even though i'm almost sick of hearing myself say variations of the same answer, i still find myself stumbling over what the most perfect/accurate answer is. and i think i just might have nailed it: similar to the way i'd rather be a good dancer than a singer, i'd much rather be those two than be a good basketballer. plus, i'm quite certain i've got more potential in arts than sports. sure, i love sports and i love being sporty but i know i'm not gonna go that far in that area. as compared to arts, which i looooooove.
oh and i'm really truly sorry but i can't help but mention this: i'm so proud of my 2.4 timing xD okay it really isn't worth celebrating by many guys'/sports people's/basketballer's standards. but i'm giving myself credit for attaining my goal despite not having trained for at least 4 months!! i deserve a chance don't i :P oh and my IPUs too!! wahaha! amazing! no idea how i pulled it off! (i kinda regret dropping even though time wasn't up..should have pulled until time was up just to see how many i could afford heh.)
one of these days i am gonna make a list of goals i wanna accomplish for dance. i really really wanna be good at it, i love it so much. and i'm totally gonna learn everything about lyrical hiphop if possible, hahaha. iz da bomb!
**have i ever mentioned i love meeting random people at random times in random places around school and just standing/sitting in the middle of nowhere talking for as long as we wish about anything we wish?
cheers to socializing! :D
it's weird how this year started out so awesome and so rough at the same time, and it's hard to decide whether i'm happier or sadder, but at least, i'm thankful for most of what has happened in the past 3 months (: praise be to God!
it's been a week of revelation.
