29 June 2008
11:03 PM
don't know why i'm blogging so much, really. but i've just been thinking a lot lately. or rather, lately i've had lots more time to pen down (in this case type) my thoughts.
i'd actually planned on an entirely carefree, happy-go-lucky, fun all the way kinda post-CTs weekend. like, my impermanent kind of therapy ie going out 24/7 and only come home to bathe and sleep, such that all your thoughts are forced out of your mind by the distractions of activities and outings. and then even at night before sleeping, you can only think a bit cause you're too tired.
guess it began on the night/morning at charmaine's. know, that period of time when you're first really alert and actively processing thoughts consciously, and then your mind slowly drifts... before you fall asleep. and when i woke up the next day with that really great feeling that i could get up anytime i want and there was an entire day FREE in front of me. when you realise how rare that feeling is, you really begin to appreciate it a lot more. plus, i like the idea of crashing on couches in the living room :) it's just, such a slumber party thing. but that's just a side note.
everyone tells me i think too much. why don't i just, relax and enjoy life? don't think too deeply about anything and everything and bring about misery to my mind. just lay back and let everything come as it comes. trust God. live life. cast aside all my fears and anxiety and doubt.
yea. sometimes i think i should stop thinking so much too. and i wonder why i do. and why i can't help it.
plus, i miss my best friend.okay this is so an effect of one tree hill. my usual pre-school-reopening therapy.
so school starts again, tomorrow. just another 9 weeks, people. not too long a wait for our one-week "break".
smile more?
