21 June 2008
8:52 PM
i need a break. i wish i could go on one of those holiday retreats to some resort and just, sit in the porch/balcony and admire the view. to get away from all the sounds in my life here and
forget.
leave behind. even if just for a while.
right now i'm just, sick of reality.
we never actually get a holiday, say a great many people. when you're in jc all your "holidays" are in reality study breaks. well, okay, you can choose not to study if you're ready to face the consequences. but that's beside the point. and even if you were to "balance" your time well between study and play, it's not equivalent to a real break from
everything.
holidays are just a convenient label.and people always go, life's too short. what are you waiting for? go scale the highest mountain, do the craziest dare you can ever think of, free yourself from those strings you're held back by... but seriously? right, i know those terms are purely figurative but even in the non-fogurative sense, when can you enjoy life, for real? when can you find the time to?
so they'll reply, you don't have to do anything out of the ordinary to enjoy life, life can be enjoyed in the simplest ways - like you can actually have fun studying, or going to school, or something like that. you can enjoy life doing nothing at home, you don't have to be out and about all the time. yes, i agree. but they still haven't answered the question of how you can enjoy life in the other way, that that involves freeing yourself from expectations and norms and just,
letting loose.i guess i'm a big cynic. and some of you would probably go, "
duuude, why do you
think so much?!!"
well.
all i'm saying is, i really want a break. i don't know when and how i'm ever gonna get the sort of break i'm looking for.
and that is what i spent my last week of the holidays musing over.
