21 August 2008
1:45 AM
this world has more hatred than love.
it doesn't have enough to offfer.
people don't ever stay.
i never thought i'd mean this, but well.
loneliness falls like a thick blanket.
all your beliefs of happiness are false.
everything goes to waste.
you don't make sense.
you hate yourself for writing this, but something just makes you go on.
your friends aren't happy.
and so neither are you.
some things just make you smile, though only for a while
EVERYBODY LEAVES.
everybody cries, everybody dies.
everything becomes superficial.
it's 151am and i haven't done any work today.
the world seems never to stop. well, it doesn't.
i despise you and your white words.
you want to stop.
you want to forget.
you want to look back
and yet forget
or do you?
i miss basketball.
why did you leave.
why did you choose.
why did you go away.
this is not emo-ing, i mean it.
you and your snooping.
it never works out.when will it?
she's unhappy, she's crying over the phone
not like in some soppy love song but
really. crying over the phone.
you tell me.
wait. don't.
people always leave.
random order.
thankful.
speeches. what do they mean?
"be hated. love someone."
this is stupid.
date. get married. have children.
poof.
everything goes to waste.secrets. lies. gossip.
hurt.
you told me to tell you if you hurt me.
why should i.
you don't care, do you?
I WANT TO SLEEP IT'S FREAKING 2AM AND I DIDN'T COMPLETE ANY WORK TODAY
and i feel like crap and you feel worse than crap and i want to do something about it but i can't i don't know how
i DON'T KNOWWHY."The world and its desires pass away, but the man who does the will of God lives forever."1 John 2:17
